Hi everyone,
I can hardly contain my emotions as I read what has happened to others. For the first time I feel less alone. I have had a massively disastrous relationship with a clinical psychologist here in Canada. I own my own many mistakes and bad choices within the therapy and really, in many ways, we were a very poor patient-psychologist match. I am gentle, quiet, etc. and she is a mega-steamroller, by her own admission, meaning she didn't hear me and steamrolled in a double semi right over my feelings. I screwed up, owned my mistakes, and I had been mistruthful with her. I am in no way not taking responsibility but what happened afterwards speaks to her narcissism and probably BPD as well. She has decimated me in the local therapy community. She revealed a lot of personal information and I think she was afraid I would go to another therapist and tell them about what she said. I wouldn't have done that - I have a lot of character and integrity. She has clearly openly gossiped and spread vexacious things about me in the therapy community and it's not all that big here. Since terminating with her, which was done in a mean-spirited, cruel, abusive way, I have tried to locate a *new* psychologist and the trouble I have had is nothing less than bizarre. I have now had half a dozen psychologists openly tell me they have a conflict because my ex-psychologist has spoken to them about me. She is narcissistic, she has a massive ego and she cannot stand the thought that her carefully crafted persona will be shattered. She is extremely intelligent and I think many of these type of people are and it masks the emotional disturbance. I sought legal counsel and the lawyer told me I have reason to sue her civilly because my reputation has undoubtedly been harmed. The local regulatory body for psychologists doesn't want to touch it. She overblew the reasons for termination and now that there is gossip in the community, gossip takes on a *momentum of its own*. I am enormously depressed and despondent about this because I am helpless. I cannot pay for legal fees and we have no *legal aid* program for this kind of thing in this Province here in Canada. It would be $15-20 thousand dollars to sue her. But she has done this purposefully and why I thought a *psychologist* would be *above* doing something so narcissistic and hurtful and purposefully *damaging*, I do not know. I was naive and that innocence of *trust* is absolutely annihilated. No one has wanted to *hear* about this. It has impacted my life and much early trauma in a severe way and I can't find anyone locally to work with. I am not adversarial but in this case, if I could, I would take legal action against her for her vexacious gossiping which has harmed me enormously. Any support or suggestions would be enormously appreciated. Peace and be well, Christine (Chris).
