Ok, this is quick, and I am no writer, but I like challenges! Couldn't contain it to five chapters, but it is still short. Thanks, BJ for the idea....I'll send this to my sweet, long distance...FINALLY.... husband!!
The Twenty Five Year Drought
by MGC
I
I am wide eyed and pig tailed
There is love and laughter all around
but I wonder, do I deserve it?
Love is giving, but is it recieving?
But I learn how to do it
You see that in me
and you love me, pig tails and grapefruit and all.
II
But it is too safe.
I need to learn something.
I am not so good
I don't deserve this goodness,
for I am flawed.
I pry myself away from your arms
I leave the love and laughter
I am alone
III
I find someone who is in pain
He hurts me time and again
He is the one to try and heal.
He can teach me.
I know I must be still
and see this all.
I close my eyes, though.
Something is missing, a hole in my heart.
I miss home. I miss you.
IV
Two little hearts join me in my loneliness.
They learn to love despite the crumbling wall of concrete
that falls on us daily.
I use my body and soul to protect them.
Something is still missing.
He cannot be healed.
The pain is trying to tell me something.
V
I open my eyes.
I know it's a nightmare and I must wake up further
and get away from the falling bricks and mortar.
I long for the love and laughter
and belonging. I have learned enough.
VI
You are waiting.
You have your own little heart to love.
Our paths are blocked but
We love each other from afar.
But nothing stops this love, not pain,
not anger, not time or distance.
VII
I simply decide. I am worthy.
I deserve the warmth and love.
We find a way.
I am home.