In September, I sat day after day with my computer in my lap, the TV on, unable to do anything productive other than read and post on Voicelessness. Here I felt heard for the first time in years. Here I found friendship for the first time in years. And here I felt affirmed and validated for the first time - maybe ever. Here I found what I needed to build confidence - small step at a time with a few slips in between.
In September I could write a few goals but I could not envision them. Those goals were draped in the cloth of false hope that had plagued my life. Today I can list goals and find myself making real, concrete steps towards those goals. The fear and anxiety that paralyzed me and had been a part of me my entire life are now reduced to fleeting shadows that flicker daily but flee when I invoke my determination, confidence and the force of true love. All of this was empowered in me through what I heard and what I received here. And as I have said many times, "I am deeply, deeply thankful." - GS
