I don't even know what the horse's name was, lol. Was there a Tonto in it? The thing is, it's odd and not something I thought was even inside of me at all, lol. I never saw any Roy Rogers shows, we watched Red Skelton and the occassional Lawrence Welk show too.
It shouldn't be there, this feeling of Roy Rogers and my Grandfather. It's gone now but, it was there and I was shocked by it.
It's feels like finding strength in one of my family legends that was untapped, up to this point. It reminds me that I have parts of all my relatives inside of me. Strengths, as well as weaknesses.
It makes me feel stronger and less alone. That it came unbidden, out of the blue is what strikes me as odd.
I've been alone pretty much all week and I know that's when a lot of work can happen on ourselves. Out of the pain of being alone with our fears and working through it. I was just so surprised by the unexpected positive feelings I experienced.
