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What do you do if you can't/don't 'trust'?
rosencrantz:
No! :lol: But he was glad to learn I'd got rid of it!!! I told him about the elitist stuff, too. I was completely bowled over when he gave me the biggest smile ever!!! He knew immediately what it meant (self-esteem etc). He's changed, too. I had anticipated he'd give me one of his 'looks' (meaning 'I can see trouble ahead' or 'I'm better than you because I'm a pushover' :wink: ).
I don't suppose I'll ever be a willow - but he was right about the oak. I wonder what kind of tree I am now. A silver birch - elegant, tall, graceful (hooee - who does she think she is?!) and... stark. I'll have to see about finding a few leaves. Maybe a eucalyptus. Still tall and graceful, but evergreen and koala bears like to mumch on the leaves - much more useful!
That last bit about who gets in to my reality check network digs right back into the past and I realise how my need to be the/my parent has ruled my life. I think I might even say 'ruined' simply because I was so driven to create and recreate the same exhausting situation - like a permanent Jack and Jill loop. Climb up the hill to success, tumble down the hill in exhaustion.
Anyway, must get the family on the road.
TTFN
R
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