I think life is teaching us that as we heal we can still pull ourselves back to happiness... when we're reminded, or tricked, or hurt again. This is important to me, because it seemed between 1969 and 2007 - I didn't have a clue what happiness felt like; I even prevented myself from feeling it - so "someone" (who else? my mom) wouldn't come along and ruin
Dear Shunned,
I have been doing this since age 14. I have not let myself be happy for some reason(and i don't realy know the reason). I just know that I have been doing it.I guess it feels "wrong" somehow to be happy. It feels like I am betraying my M somehow . Maybe,it is the 'fear " that she will come and take it away( even though she is not physically here).
I would love to hear more about this. Maybe, I will start a thread . Thanks for expressing it, Shunned
Love Ami