I feel so lonely and so numbed.
So lonely!!!!!!
Ther's always someone home here, Lupita.
::pouring Lupita hot cup of whatever she wants to drink::
You can come here and tell us about the loniless, the hurt, the confusion and the pain.
I watch you grow stronger and become more centered... such a hard journey.
A very lonely journey.... I know,
but I wish I'd had this board the first couple time I had to travel it.
You're not all alone..... and this pain is a symptom....
of healinng.
Darnit.
Why does it have to be so uncomfortable?
because we'd stay stuck where we are if it wasn't.
That's why.
Soon, Lupita will be giving advice about this on the board and growing through the next stage of learning.
Sharing her lessons with those who come after.
I want to say 'chin up' but you may need to sob a bit in the shower first. It's ok to be sad, imperative that you feel that too.
Listen to the pain and try to be still with it.
There's a message and once you learn it..... you figure how to counter it and put coping mechanisms in place.
Self care.... self care.... self care.
Pretend until you believe you're worth all that time and trouble.
You are, you know?
When do you go to that dance class again?
What are you going to wear?
Scruff your face and body and condition your hair. Pluck those stray eyebrows.
Stretch and pay attention to the next meal you prepare yourself.
Make it a little special and let me know what book we're going to read for our new club; )