Thank You, Esteemed Members of the Board

[changing]

I am going to start law school on Monday. After my husband left another COBRA bill for me to pay for both of us (he put my maiden name on it, scratched off "his" name)
Tomorrow I have to pay the first installment  for law school, so the timing really  stirred things up (insecurity, feeling I have no where to fall, stupid decision, going through a divorce will make me distracted and I will fail, etc)I got a bit shaky, questioned myself, the folly of spending the money for tuition, etc. These posts make me realize that I have to risk something on MYSELF and START LIVING NOW-care for me, and not listen to anyone who doesn't value me or my life. If I fail, well, I haven't had a vacation in 15 years, so I'll just have blown the money and time in law school on having a fun, interesting (and expensive ) time living out my dream (people go to fantasy baseball camp with NO chance of becoming a Yankee!) And just maybe I can do it and succeed !!!
Anyway, thank you all so much. You have been so kind, wise and supportive and I am breaking free of so much garbage as the result of your kindness and tutelage  (though I falter and simper at times)-I am getting my life back and enjoying it as well!!!!

Hugs,

Changing

[Gaining Strength]

And just maybe I can do it and succeed !!!

Not just maybe - you CAN!!

Say it and believe it -  it makes a difference - you CAN!!

[Ami]

Dear Changing,
   God will get you through. I am so, so ,so happy for you. What a story you have. You  do use it and will continue to use it to inspire others.
  That is very smart thinking to get you out of the 'fear of failure 'mode--- the Yankee Baseball camp. I know about it b/c my H wanted to go.
Changing, I ask one thing. Keep us posted  all the steps along the way.
  I, often ,think of you as a little girl, when I want to give up. I think of how your kindness was not broken. It could have so easily been .
   One day, in the next world, all the pain will be long gone.
  Now, I am so glad to know you                                   Love   Ami

[lighter]

Listen...... I know plenty of attorneys that made it through lawschool.... and aren't nearly so sharp as you.

Do your best... it'll be wonderful to have something like this to throw yourself into.... something to keep you focused on the future and building yourself up.

Wonderful news Changing!
Your N will be eating his guts out.

[JanetLG]

Changing,

Just starting this is a hugely important step, that shows what you're capable of. The rest will just follow.

I started a degree when  was 31, 'just to see if I could do it'. I was really uncertain.  I ended up with a First Class Honours Degree, after 6 years of study.

I'm sure you can do it. You'll love it!!

Janet

[Hopalong]

Bravo, Changing! 

I am so happy and proud for you.

love
Hops

[changing]

Gaining Strength, Lighter, Ami, Janet , Hopalong-

You are so wonderful- I was thinking about how terrible it was to be so isolated, and how I would always falter, doubt myself, etc when "the dark night of the soul" would come on- Jesus himself suffered great agony when he asked "Will you not abide with me one hour" and he was left alone, so I can't be ashamed of my weakness. When I would post in desperation, you would be so generous , and "abide " with me until the dawn came. Maybe tell me some outrageous jokes or make a wonderfully snappy remark or two, provide deep wisdom and sage advice, kindly assure me, or just be there...Instead of weakening and going backwards, your support has helped me to go forward. I only hope that I can learn from you and have the honor of helping you in some small way as well.

Love and peace to you,

Changing

[Gaining Strength]

I only hope that I can learn from you and have the honor of helping you in some small way as well.

You just did for me.  I love the give and take of support here.  It is living water for me.  Thanks - GS