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The breakthrough of my feelings.....

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Dawning:

--- Quote ---Last night I even cried when the 9lives commercial was on.  We love that cat like you can't believe, but I have really come to terms with my feelings. That it is ok for me to be sad. That I don't have to apologize or feel badly for feeling the way I do - even if someone else doesn't understand or agree with me. I don't have to explain myself.
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Michelle, what an inspiration your breakthrough message is. Thank you very much for putting it into words.

I, too, feel for your loss.  Living with two cats, who I look after and nurture (listening to their meow-voices) I can completely understand how much Pepper means to you.  

"The last act of a well-cared for cat, is to find itself a place for
the last of its nine lives, to go quietly out into the night, and
not to be a burden to its adopted family.  
Dignified to the end, we can learn so much from them.  
Light a candle for her, and remember the good times
she allowed you to have with her."  -anonymous.

Saying a prayer for Pepper now.  

~Dawning.

Michelle:
Dawning,

Thank you so much for your words of kindness and empathy.  It feels comforting to know that other people really "know" how you are feeling at a time like this - thank you for that.


--- Quote ---"The last act of a well-cared for cat, is to find itself a place for
the last of its nine lives, to go quietly out into the night, and
not to be a burden to its adopted family.  
Dignified to the end, we can learn so much from them.  
Light a candle for her, and remember the good times
she allowed you to have with her."  -anonymous.
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I cried when I read that.  Thank you for sharing it - I have never heard it before.  It is so true too.  Our pets just love us unconditionally.  I have a dog also, and she is part of my heart too.  But there is just something different about a cat.  I can't put it into words, but Pepper just knows me.  Pepper doesn't ask for anything in return for her love, she gives so much without expecting anything and she is totally happy with that.  I have to say this....my father died in '01 of a massive heart attack - totally unexpected.  As I've mentioned in a previous post, I was sexually abused by him and I also suspect now that he was at least a partial "N".  Although my hope is fading with each passing day, I am not certain that Pepper isn't coming home.  And the emotional loss I feel from possibly losing her is deeper and more painful than even losing my father.  I have cried more the last few days over just "thinking" about losing her than I have since my father died.  Sad, I know but I am just trying to explain my love for Pepper.  

My counselor gave me a terrific definition one day for "expectation" - planned disappointment.  I have taken this to heart on many different levels and situations in my life this past year.  But it rings true especially now, for Pepper.  She doesn't "expect" anything of me.  I guess it is the easiest to totally, without reservation, full force give your heart away to someone or something when there is nothing in particular that they are looking for from you.....in this case, the only thing she "wants" is to be cared for and loved which I have provided hundredfold.  The unconditional love I have gotten from her is immeasurable.

Thanks for listening....I am just feeling really sad tonight.  I was reading tonight by the back door hoping that I would hear her little paws scratch to come in.  So far, no such luck.  Please keep praying for her.

Thank you again Dawning for understanding.....it means so much right now.

Love, Michelle

Wildflower:
Hi Michelle,

I'm so sorry to hear about Pepper.  I had a pretty special cat when I was growing up and boy was it hard to lose him.  I'm so happy for you that Pepper has already given you this gift of accessing your feelings, and I hope he comes home to teach you more.

My cat and I are sending homing vibes to your cat.

Wildflower

Michelle:
Thanks for the message Wildflower, it means so much!  Please continue to send those "homing" vibes to Pepper!   :)

Michelle

Portia:
Hi Michelle, I just asked the 'spirits' to help Pepper home if that's the right thing - cats are important in our world and they deserve special thoughts. “Please help Pepper get home if that’s where she should be.” And if she’s not meant to come home in ‘person’ I hope she’s the cat spirit flitting like a shadow across your back door and catching the corner of your eye. But for now, help her get home if that’s possible. Thoughts P

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