Iphi, would you say your sister has N characteristics? It seems to me that, all that I've studied on the topic, is epitomized in these children who pretty much "raised themselves," at some crucial point of life. I'd like to know if you'd include your sister in this description, due to the choice to cut off empathy. ~Laura
Hiya Laura - I'm not sure I exactly understood what you meant about children who had to raise themselves (I think any child of an N has to raise themselves even if food and shelter are provided), but I will do my best on the rest. I don't think my sister is N, but I think we both did what we had to do to survive and that is what she felt she had to do - cut off her empathy, like cutting off her foot to escape a trap. All she had to do was look at me to decide plenty of distance was called for - I was a mess - depressed, crying all the time, super anxious, screwing up at school (not all that bad really - but it was about perfection), getting into conflict with teachers, so forth. So mainly, yeah, I think it was me that she wanted to put a quarantine on, because I was destabilizing, but she took it further and put the quarantine on everybody - she said "i'm taking care of #1." Like Ami says - somebody else might have thrown me under the bus, but she was definitely the one who would leave me there, but she couldn't do any different - and it shows the degree of her fear.
She's still prone to a kick-when-you-are-down approach, but only if you actually go to her looking for warmth or empathy. She doesn't come find you to kick you. She's not into control like Ns are. It's self-protection. Not a rescuer, no. In her mind, I am the cause of our family problems through my innate screwiness - and imo that means she is in denial and too terrified to lay the proper responsibility in the proper quarter at my dad's feet, because it was always his #1 priority to avoid his proper responsibility. He didn't care who took it in the neck as long as he didn't have to assume any responsibility about it or have anyone else point it out to him.
But beyond that, when I think about both sides of our family and our cousins and relatives - there's not all that much empathy to go around anyway. I have identified 2, possibly 3, more Ns on my dad's side and my paternal grandpa was extremely N-ish if not N.
Nature or nurture?