been out of touch - sorry

[towrite]

Hey guys and dolls - sorry I've been out of pocket for so long. Fighting this depression and fear taxes all my energy. Finished with my wreck suit and will be lucky to get $500 out of it, after medical and legal fees.  Insurance companies have a stranglehold on awards nowadays, but this time it was the judge. He refused to call in the jury and said we had to settle it right then and gave us a low figure. I never knew judges could do that. But at least it's over and one less thing to be nervous about. Now I am just struggling with the fear of being penniless and homeless in a couple of months. Have been applying for jobs like crazy and not one interview. I am sure it's my age, but I'm afraid to lie on the application. They don't come right out and ask my age - they do it sneaky-like by getting the date of my college graduation, etc. And if you leave it blank, they reject the application altogether.

More later

[axa]

Welcome back towrite, sorry to hear you have been having such a difficult time

axa

[Ami]

Welcome back,dear friend. It sounds very, very hard. I am really sorry.Life can be so pitiful sometimes.(too often)
                                                                                Love   Ami
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[Iphi]

towrite I am reassured to hear from you and have just been wondering how you are.  I am sorry you are in a difficult passage.  Probably you did this long ago, but have you applied to temporary agencies?  And have you considered taking this opportunity to move away?  It has struck me that there really could not be too much distance between you and your NM and B.  It would be more convenient if she was kidnapped to Antarctica, but short of that perhaps you could move yourself....

[Overcomer]

Poor To!  What a pain.  I have a problem with insurance companies and the legal system.  Hope you get out of this soon!

[isittoolate]

Welcome Back towrite

I feel sorry that you didn't rejoin with happy news
It is one long haul------------------------- LIFE---------------------------isn't it?

xx
Izzy

[Leah]

Welcome Back ((( Towrite )))

Your perseverence is commendable and I do know only too well that endless application form filling it is not a pleasurable task.

But there is surely one that has your name to it! 

Love,

Leah

[Hopalong]

hi (((((ToWrite)))))

I was decked by ageism and terrifed, as my last employment wound down.
All the frisky puppies in this town have PhDs. I'm 57 and had just grown out my white hair.
Oh what dark thoughts.

Then one day I followed an impulse to contact a local business and offer to barter my editing skill to tidy up their website...and now, I'm closing in on my first anniversary at the happiest job I've had for years.

Money's tight, and I've scaled down dreams. But I've dreamed new ones, and the whole Voluntary Simplicity thing is where I'm at anyway. (Not much choice, when you're already getting your work clothes at Goodwill.)

Happiness is still possible. Just let go of believing you can predict it, but stay open to the possibility of good things.

That was the lightbulb for me. Once I finally shoved out the fear and said, that's it, I can't change the world so I'll just be happy anyway and keep applying. That's when it happened.

I send much sympathy for the search. You will find or be found.

love
Hops

[Leah]

Don't know if this helps any but here goes ...

Voluntary work was a wonderful way back into a work routine and restored my confidence.

Still engaged in voluntary work as it has always been my heart and it is something that I very much enjoy.

It is amazing the scope available to lend your aptitude, skills, and experience to.

Just a hopefully, helpful thought/idea to offer you.

Love,

Leah


PS  Would add that the organisation that one engages with as a volunteer is treated the same as an employee and therefore receives up to date training, as appropriate to the volunteer role and its environment. 

[Poppy Seed]

Hey Towrite,

Glad to hear your voice.  Struggles!!! I guess that is part of the journey.  Eh?  They say it brings wisdom!!

Much love,
Poppyseed

[Certain Hope]

Dear towrite,

It's good to read you... been thinking of you and wondering, hoping...

I pretty much feel like Bean said re: those dates and think I'd just leave that part blank, with the idea that further info is available upon request/ at interview. Sheesh.... age is so relative... to me, employers are so utterly foolish to eliminate a candidate from consideration on that basis.

It's a very positive thing that you've resolved the wreck suit and gotten that off the docket. I know the results were far less than thrilling, and yet it's so good to have an issue like that settled and be able to move on. We have plenty of choices to make each day re: how we're going to manage our own disappointments... or even IF we're going to manage them. So much of my own struggle has revolved around those disappointments with which I never completed the dealings... I just hope you can really put this one and others to rest. Whew... so many things I just refused to let go... but now it's feeling like all that old stuff has been high-pressure-washed clean off the braincells... lol.
((((((((towrite)))))))))  I just wish you the very best... take good care of yourself.

With love,
Carolyn