Roadkills

[Feline]

I dunno sometimes I feel like a freak for saying...

Does anyone else here cry over roadkills?
Tonight I saw a particularly gruesome one,blood was all over the road I think the animal was beheaded.The furry body which once held a life,one I never knew myself,but precious nonetheless  was lying  on the dark roadside,abandoned,forgotten,disrespected...alone. .Damn I hate humans sometimes .I really do hate cars. I saw it and sat in the car,and my partner pulled into a gas station,and I lost it..I cried the kinds of sobs that come from the pit of your heart,I just was hurting insidse  for this animal.
We went home and I hugged all 3 of my cats so thankful they were all OK.
They were a bit confused at my upset but they warmed me with thier heartsong(purrs) and the love in thier eyes were a balm to my aching  soul.

I hate the unquestioned stupid ways we have let ourselves be forced  live by other people we believe have power over us to make us drive to work tell us howe to plan communitiesthese institutions made by people that tell us  how we should and must live..I hate the spineless conformity to people in power this culture of make believe exibits in it's unquestiononing servitude to what kills it..It's disgusting...We live in ways that are sick,destructive and suicidal,ways that cause so much death ,pain and suffering,than we pretend to ourselves it isn't really harmful! Arrgh we lie!...Shit I wish the earth would swallow up the psycho failure called civilization and wipe out the cancer that is this human race,take away all the asphalt, pollution and the industrialized military civilized crap we systematically create to soothe egos insecurities and pretend we are in control, that kills everything it touches.Humanity is insane and we cannot stop destroying beauty.

This poor creature,is going to go to some rending plant, after it's picked up like trash by animal control.
All it's fat will by fried out of it's broken body in cookers that NEVER stop. Rending plants cook the dead animal innocents,the shelter kills the vet enthuasia patients,slaughterhouse wastes,horses that are injured,sick deer,downer cows.The cookers run day and night everyday.This little being  will be  turned into industrial lubricants,chicken food and industrial protiens...cat and dog food.. And nobody cares!!! They say I should not care because it's JUST roadkill an inavoidable conequence..ogf what?

Humanities sick inherent insecurity and want of control? Thier patghologically stunted empathy and myopic self absorbed self awareness? Thier anthrocentric bigotry?

I have had it. I can't stand humans! I wish my heart would just stop sometimes..I am ashamed to be born a crazy,hairless ugly 'civilized' monsterous thing..
But at least I can still feel sympathy. What about the so called civilized humands who say,Don't get bent out of shape,it's JUST  a roadkill.When I hear that I hear It's Just  someone else's pain ignore it,it's just your pain,deny it,,it's just one of those a-rabs over there  when they see torture done at the hands of the militrary represeneting me in a forigen land... How can some humans let themselves be so dead inside,so in denial,so selfish so,,...sociopathic?

When will people realize enabeling the narcissist the bully and sociopath is what will kill us all.Can't people see narcissitic personality problems in all it's variances is what is destryoing any  hope for a better future because we have given away our power to them? Narcissists go on taking, recreating traumas and recreating narcissism  until they are forced to stop or abandoned. It seems like no one can step up ,change perceptions,weake people up and and stop them because it looks like humanity itself has stockholm syndrome,it's  too hurt and confused timid and caught up in thier"morality standards... So it is fighting with one hand tied behind the back?At a disadvantage and how did bullies get the upper hand anyway? The bullshit narcissists do in relationships are what we spend our entire lives getting away from so that we never can get around to questioning the inherent cancerousness in this so called civilized way of life we live??

We have a emotional murderer and sadistic power freak  bullymanipulating our very perceptions  in the world.And  it is among us ,So what  can we do to stop it without becoming just like it? Isn't that the crux of the million dollar sociology question of the century?

[Jaded911]

Howdy Feline,

In my job feline, I handle humans who are at times roadkill.  I am the one who flies in for trauma patients who are the victims of maniacs that walk the face of the earth.  Not to downplay your reaction to the animal but I tend to the humans that fell victim to some S.O.B who was drunk behind a wheel, shot someone, beat the hell out of someone, fell asleep behind the wheel, or just plain out and out terrorized someone.

You know, I realized many patients ago how precious life truly is and how many families are effected by someone elses careless actions.  I also realized many moons ago that I refused to harden my heart by these selfish ars's who hurt others.

You have empathy feline.  Empathy and sympathy are two traits that bare no shame.  

I think there are some people who feel like roadkill.  I think that there are people out there that feel like sacrificial lambs to those people that call theirselves family.  Why some people have to be so damn heartless is beyond me and I have yet to figure out how they lay their head down at night.

But it is what it is and nothing you or I can do will change the minds of those who dont mind hurting others by their sadistic ways.  I read this quote one time and I can not recall who wrote it but it stated "I want nor need a headstone when I pass.  I hope there are those who question why I chose not to have one.  To me my life was well lived if this occur.  If my life was lived at the expense of others and I needed a marvolous stone to state what I was not. If I lived the life of a sinner and passed.  If anyone could question the reason I even have a stone with false descriptions upon it would signal that I lived the life of a sinner well."

I refuse to sacrifice others for my own gain, yet I also refuse to be sacrificed for others self motivations.  There are those who care about life for others and not just their life but it seems like today they are few and far in between at times.

I dont know feline what this world will be for my great grand children.  I have wondered if things in this world are getting rougher or is it that we just hear more about the unthinkables?  I mean my gosh you turn on the news and it is one negative thing after another.  

Why cant one day we turn on the news and it tell how happy everyone is or what someone else did to enhance somebody elses life?  

This just made me think to myself about my neighbor.  LOL, I am going to go now and bake him a cake.  He has chit for family and he just gives and gives and it doesnt seem like anyone cares about the man behind the money.  He mentioned his favorite cake the other day and ya know what, he deserves to smile too.  

Feline, I will bake you one too.  LOL, of course you cant be here to eat any.  How about I eat it for you with a smile on my face.  I will concentrate real hard and the warmth of that smile will surround your thoughts as the cake fills my belly.  Oh here I am being mean, but I dont want your cake to waste.

Keep your head up feline with a smile on your face.  We cant change the world, we can only make it a better place for us to live in.

[Feline]

I don't want a headstone that says anything. What I want  to leave  is a sculpture of a panther in my place.
I don't want the sculpture to be used as a memorial to me,I want no name or  dates put on it..I want it to be a reminder of what beauty is like.
A feline to me is the most beautiful,and so I want a sculpture to remind people that see it  that beauty still exists around them even when death takes all, and trauma colores everthing grey,it cannot destroy the memory and reality of  beauty in this horrible existance.

It's my way of giving the suffering that want to walk in beauty comfort one last time and give them a way to remember.

[jaded]

That is a very good idea, never thought of that.  Something to think about for the day.  What would I pick to signify what I loved or what would I chose to represent who I was.

Medussa would definately describe what I look like this morning but I can fix that with a nifty shower so, hummm.   Im gonna ponder this one for awhile, mull it over and the final thought of the day, have a good day all.