Oy.
One of my biggest vulnerabilities has/had always been "over-sharing."
I hate being guarded.
BUT...I do finally have a glimpse of the stability I feel with a more 'anchored' self.
So I think maybe it's not being "guarded" as in perpetually defended...but more like, my core self is okay. I have more faith that I'm not all inner jello. So if I reveal vulnerability to someone and they are cruel, I will hurt and promptly begin healing.
I think what was going on when I had nothing but a string of Ns in my life was that I was wounded, and that's normal, but the wound stayed open. Just stayed open.
What I think is better now, is that I can still be wounded...but I start healing more quickly because I have an aversion to re-wounding myself.
love
Hops
