Re: Voiceless, Yes

[reallyME]

nan,

Thank you for sharing your story.  I'm so sad that you went through all that pain and no, it was not your fault about your father at all.  I understand your fear about the doll too.  I can remember similar situations in my own life where I felt very afraid like that.  Your brother was no brother at all.  What a truly MONSTEROUS creature! It's all going to be ok.  You are in a good place with people who will encourage you and love you through to healing.

BLessya,
~Laura

[nan99]

Laura - I appreciate the kind words.  Sometimes I think I need to sit down with my brother just to let him know the impact his cruelty has had on me all these years -- like maybe bringing it out into the open would help somehow.  But the more I think about it, I'm sure he just wouldn't get it -- he'd just laught about it or minimize it, rationalize it, etc.  He's definitely an N, too, like my mom and oldest brother. He's had a lot of relationship problems throughout his life, very angry and manipulative sort of person. I remember reading that it's best just to stay clear of N's as much as possible - sounds like good advice.

Nan

[reallyME]

Kind of hard to do when they are in your family or immediate places you congregate, but yes, it's best to steer clear and avoid them and pray.