Dear James,
I have been thinking of you. I hope you are OK.
As hard as the memories and emotions are, it is good that they are coming up and getting out.
When I first told my story here, I was shocked at that emotional storm that I went through afterwards. I had no idea I had so many emotions locked away. I posted my story, and went through emotional flooding that lasted about 2-3 weeks. I was raw, shaky, crying, enraged, and I couldn’t control the flood of emotions; they just kept pouring out.
Now I see that I had this core of emotions that I had locked down tight, so tight that I wasn’t even aware it was there. I told my story and it ripped the lid off those emotions and opened a flood gate.
As hard as it was to go through – a couple of months later, I feel so much better; cleaner and more at peace about it all if that makes any sense. It will get better James, hang in there.
There is so much good advice here – take your time; be very, very gentle with yourself; and try not to do it alone.
You did not deserve any of what happened to you. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to face the horrors of the past, and put them to rest, where they belong.
(((((James)))))
Take care,
Peace