Assumptions
Does anybody else do this? I try and rationalise everything. Something happens, and I get hurt. I then try and rationalise it so that I don’t hurt so much. This just makes it worse, because it becomes a festering sore, with the scab the rationalised version, and the emotions the rot or decay hidden under the surface.
Some of you will have read how I wanted attention and my two best friends had other obligations and were unable to give me the attention I needed (or I thought they couldn’t give the attention I needed but didn‘t check). I wrote about this on the Attitude thread.
Anyway, I hope I can make this short because I do seem to ramble on. I got an email from one of these friends this morning asking why I was hiding. I was amazed that he would think this and replied that I had sent several emails during the week. He responded by saying he hadn’t heard from me in the last week or so. I assume or presume those emails must have gone into his junk mail file as has happened in the past. I will have to check this.
But the point is instead of checking that he was, in fact busy with his son, I made the assumption that he was, and I also assumed he was overloaded work-wise. However, I have no proof that this was the case but that is how I rationalised my need for attention - always bottom of the list, not wanting to upset anyone or appear too demanding.
Does anyone relate to this?
Kim in Oz
