Wake up from a bad dream

[Izzy_*now*]

Dear OC

I am sorry you are still hurting. Your mother has had plastic surgery, facial?  Is/was she really not a good-looking woman?

Just asking to see if she knows or feels ugly, from your perspective.

If she is really not physically ugly, then perhaps she just feels it inside? and would that give you reason to hope that she has feelings somewhere else inside, about other matters?
xx
Izzy,,, who tries to examine everything---leave no stone unturned.

[Overcomer]

I think my mom was kinda homely growing up.  My grandfather did not encourage her much.  She has had two face lifts, a tummy tuck and some other things.  But you cannot keep the aging from happening.  She is 71 But could easily pass for 60.  Problem with her is this generational pride and arrogance.  My grandfather would not work for others so made a living by gambling and fighting chickens!

[debkor]

Kelly,

My grandfather made a living gambling too or at least tried to he lost more then he won.  Chicken's don't know about.  He was big time into the horses and the bars and himself.

Love
Deb

[Overcomer]

He just had this way of controlling the family.  Then all of a sudden people stopped cow towing to him and he lost his edge.  People started ignoring him and he died with the family pretty much ignoring him.  I wonder if mom will live her final years surrounded by loved ones or alone-my bet is alone.  But I will probably be the one who goes and visits after all she has put me through!

[debkor]

Kelly,

Aw that is sad isn't it.  I guess my grandfather went the same route and my mother did help take care of him in the end of his days with her sisters. Well, four of her sisters. My mother and her one sister were treated horribly.  The other two were I guess good.  Her one brother and the other sister were long gone years before.  Her brother showed up to the funeral and was selling fur coats out of the trunk of his car to the people who came to pay thier respects.

Love
Deb 

[Overcomer]

I got an email from my mom telling me it was borderline personality disorder not bipolar that the counselor said.  I do not know but I think that is worse.  Then I looked at my reaction to all this and I think it was too much reaction to what she said.  I think she cannot say anything to me without deeply hurting me on matter how benign it is.  The truth is it reminds me of people who are allergic to bees-one sting a reaction-2 A more severe one and 3 Shock or hospital.

[Hopalong]

Let's get her out of your head for today, okay Kell?

You need to relax, breathe deeply and meditate for 10 minutes, then pamper yourself through a nice bit of protein, go outside for a 10-minute walk to get your cheeks glowing, tune into spring happening all around you, then go to your interview.

Today is about TOMORROW. Enjoy your job interview!

love
Hops

[Overcomer]

Hey thanks Hops.  I do kinda spiral into obsession, dont I?  I decided to take it easy-drink a cup of coffee-get my d ready for school and then drive her-come home and then get ready to go to the interview.  I bought new hose-washed my skirt-and did some research on the company.  If this job pans out I can be in the store half the time and calling on businesses the other half.  I figure this might give me the opportunity to leave-pick up my d at school between appointments.  Say a prayer!

[Hopalong]

YOU GOT IT, Kel.

xo
Hops

[lighter]

::saying a prayer for your interview right now::

You are OVERCOMER and one good feeling leads to another.

Light

[Ami]

(((((((((((((Kelly)))))))))))))))                    Love  Ami