Update

[axa]

Hi Guys,

Just an update as I have not been online a lot lately.  I am working on my fourth paper.  I am sure some of you will remember the stress and anxiety my first one caused me.  I am ENJOYING writing this one, my final.  Thank you all so much for hanging in there with me when I was freaking out.

I love my course and am seriously considering applying for a phd programme.  I absolutly love the learning and feel so good.  I still have my down times when I struggle but my life has turned around so much in the past two years.  I find it hard to believe that when I came onto this site, I think it was a year and a half ago I was at my wits end living abroad with Mr Evil, scared, depressed and feeling helpless.  I love my life now, even the difficult parts are ok as I know I can manage them and have learned that everything passes and nothing remains the same.  I have not made a list for a while so it I feel another one coming on which I will share with you.  I have found sharing these goals helpful and affirming.  I guess if any newbies read this I just want to say anything is possible once you exit the N orbit.

Hugs,

Axa

[lighter]

So glad this update's a nice one for you.

Did you find someone to help with the papers, or did you figure it out all on your own?

Picturing you continuing your education made me smile.

Watching your light up ahead in the distance.... gives me hope.

Light

[axa]

Lighter,

THERE IS HOPE...

Regarding the papers, got a whole heap of advise here from people which really helped, both practical and emotional and of course there is the thing called practise, which really does make a difference.  I have to remind myself all the time to keep writing, it does not matter if it is not perfect, it just has to be good enough and the delicious part (never thought I would say this) is the editing.  I am not particularily good at it but I am getting better.  Reading about your hostas makes me long for some planting, an aching back after a day in the garden and the smell of summer.

hugs,

axa

[lighter]

So glad editing's fun for you.

As for the smell of summer?

I'm still intoxicated by the smell of Spring.... hope it doesn't end soon.

Lighter

[Certain Hope]

(((((((((((Axa)))))))))))) Thank you for shining such a beam of sunny hope into the gloom.

Your courage and determination are an inspiration to me and I'm looking forward to your next list!
My own is still in my head, but mentally scratching things off as I stumble onward... well, it's better than nothing.
Still somewhere in between survival mode and full blown thriving, but more hopeful (and realistic!) than ever, most days.

Much love to you,
Carolyn

[axa]

And much love to you Carolyn,

axa

[teartracks]

Hi axa,

I'm posting a little and reading a little.  Just wanted to thank you for the update.  Looking forward to your list.  So glad things have lightened up for you.  Congratulations on the papers. 

Love,

tt

[gratitude28]

(((((((((((((((((axa)))))))))))))))

You are the coolest

Love, Beth

[axa]

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHh  I feel like I have been hugged

THANK YOU ALL

Axa