Dance of Anger

[Certain Hope]

Kelly,

If they really did laugh at you when you left, then that's only a sign of empty-headedness on their part, as far as I'm concerned.

Maybe your next job doesn't have to be the "perfect" job. How about an "interim" job?  A "breaking out of prison" job? A "transitioning from my old life into my new life" job. See... if it's just a job, then it doesn't carry along with it all the weight of your past.
If you will make up your mind to allow it to be "just a job", then you'll be free, I think.
But if you are determined that it must be the ideal, perfect job (to impress your mom or whatever), then you've saddled yourself with a huge burden.
Hope that makes sense.

Love,
Carolyn

[Gaining Strength]

Who ever they is who wants someone younger and less experienced is not the right one for you!  You are looking for work in all the wrong places.  You need to look for the people and organization that will appreciate you, your experience and your skills.  Maybe you can look for the right people who deserve you rather than a place that will accept you.  Go with an attitude that you are looking them over to see if they merit an employee like you rather than trying to sell them on you.  They'll wonder what you've got and start begging for you.

[Leah]

Who ever they is who wants someone younger and less experienced is not the right one for you!  You are looking for work in all the wrong places.  You need to look for the people and organization that will appreciate you, your experience and your skills.  Maybe you can look for the right people who deserve you rather than a place that will accept you.  Go with an attitude that you are looking them over to see if they merit an employee like you rather than trying to sell them on you.  They'll wonder what you've got and start begging for you.

Pure solid gold wisdom.

[Ami]

GS
 You have a gift with words. I agree with Gs and Leah, Kelly!     Love   Ami

((((((Kelly)))))))))

[Overcomer]

Ah thanks all!  I love the get out of prison job.  Something to get me out while I keep looking!  My new business will take off since no one is doing it in Iowa-so any job I take could be an interim thing till that takes off!  And GS You said it-do I want THEM?  I Applied at some places that want you to work 55 hours per week and that seems like prison too!  I am feeling a bit better-thanks!

[Overcomer]

Yes and not allowing them to railroad you into old patterns.  I am sick of having her project all her stuff and all blame on me.  I choose to walk away from the "dance."  No more hoping and praying that mom will see the error in her ways.  The only way she will learn is to have to do it on her own without all of us to prop her up.  She will lose key people and have no where to turn.  And definitely not my aunt.  That is the blind leading the blind.  But maybe it will be better without me.

[Certain Hope]

Kelly,

It'll be different without you, that's for sure...
but I think it'll be so much easier all the way around if you determine to detach from the consequences and kinda cut yourself off from info as to how the business is doing once you are separated from it...
Kinda like when our kids grow up and strike out on their own and we're no longer in the loop. I often feel like I'm better off not knowing some of the stuff my grown girls are doing, and that way I'm not so tempted to kibbutz (or butt in!) where I don't belong.

Maybe this isn't going to be a temptation for you, but I can imagine it'd be very tempting to me to almost wish that she'd fall flat on her face without my involvement... and that's something that I'd really have to pray about, to prevent getting a whole new bitter root springing up. Focusing on your own positive steps forward is the best way to keep off her crooked path, I think.

Wishing you the very best!
Carolyn

[Overcomer]

If I can find a job and be distracted by a new life I will not bother-it will bother me if I have made up my mind to go and cannot find a job.  Pray that the very best job comes my way!

[Ami]

You are in my thoughts and prayers,Kelly.       Love   Ami

((((((Kelly))))))))