Phone call with N mom has me in tears

[Gabben]

So, I let the conversation be all about her, as much as she wants... I think all she really wants is for someone to listen (so did I... huh

Hi PR:

I think that is what I pretty much do.........perhaps that was not clear from my first post and her long diatribe? But thanks for the advice.

From my first post:

"I have not seen her in 3 years, I limit the time I speak with her on the phone because over the many years I have learned that the more time that I give her the more she tries to pry into my personal life and get into my head. I usually just let the conversations be about her, I do the listening."

[Gabben]

Better -- but I deserve the right to lose it and break down into tears when needed for my healing.

Lise

[gratitude28]

Ugh - I just typed you a long message and managed to lose it.

Lise, this is exactly my life too. I am unimportant. I am boring. And my NM brings out the absolute worst in me. I don't even feel like myself around her.

I will never have a life she respects. She will either be jealous or contemptuous of me.

I also talk about the weather, her animals and her health if I must talk to her. Nothing else really matters to her.

It sucks. I am so sorry for your pain, Lise.

Love, Beth

[Certain Hope]

((((((((((((Lise))))))))))))) thank you.  I could feel the comfort of your arm across my shoulder... such a rare experience for me.

Salt acts as a purifier, I always say that when we cry we are purifying our souls.

  I agree.

Wish I weren't so tongue-tied today, but that seems to happen as a sort of fall-out after a very emotional event. No sense fighting it, I guess.
Did some planting out in the yard after work, and the physical tiredness feels complete... and good.
Glad tomorrow's a new day... and I hope it's a good one for you.

Love,
Carolyn