myself, feel like I"m going crazy. How can this continue to happen?
Is it me?
Why am I a magnet to so many peoples garbage.
Bullies on his side.

Dh and I went to the wake, a few digs got through it.
The next morning we made it to the church for the funeral. The mass was beautiful, sil eulogy of her mother was painstakingly beautiful. Dh and I just wept with with joy of what they had and our hearts really felt their great loss.
Witnessing the rippling effect of such love, being apart of a family, in the truest sense of the word was a gift to be a witness to.
Well, I prayed, I prayed so hard, to forgive. Felt a release. For a short time.
THEN, as we are giving eachother the sign of Peace, dh mutters something under his breath. I then hear his sister say do you want
Roz? Dh says "no forget it".
I'm feeling the tension, and heard my husband utter he's still the same.
I am freaking out inside, we are in mass, a time to mourn, to celebrate a dear woman's life, her eternity with our loving God and this happens!
As we leave the church I whisper what happened?!!!!!!!!!!
Dh husband says he reached out past his sister to her husband to shake his hand, and say peace be with you, when his bil just looked right at him and grinned and never extended his hand.I couldn't believe this happened. I thought maybe it was a mistake.
No it wasn't. We went to the cemetery and left right after and didn't attend the family gathering after. Just left without saying good bye at the cemetery.
Watching his brother go over to his middle brother and give him a big hug and shook hands. He never glimpsed at his younger brother
or acknowledged him.
Definitely not in the click.
This is rude behaviour, in Church was my husbands Brother in law, at the cemetery it was his Brother that ignored is presence. Bil that lost his mother in law.
Can anyone explain how dh and I attract too many people like this?
We are both the youngest out of our families? Is our existence that sickening to people?
Forget about me, my dh his one of the kindest, most respectable, sensitive loving person I have ever known. He is not a wimp but a true gentleman in todays times.
Instead they relentlessly trash him.
Then our oldest dd comes home so happy about her last day of school, today. We put on the happy face, not to hurt or take away from her special time of her life.
When I really want to yell, we have no extended family, we can't see them again, they are evil...................I DID NOT.
Instead I engulfed myself in her joy. Smiled and laughed as we made graduation cupcakes with smiley faces, cap and tassels. They were so CUTE.
I don't know what to do? I feel trapped in our own life. Trapped with siblings we did not choose, siblings that would disgrace us over and over again.
Thank you for giving me a place to share. When I felt all alone this morning coming here made me feel like their is a family unit who is pulling for each of us, to be the best we can be in a very imperfect world. love seasons