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ch:
"slit wrists" HA-HA-HA!!
I'm sorry. i don't mean to laugh about such a thing, but the way you told your story was so heart-wrenching, with that hilarious punch.
Well, Brava to you Ellie!! It took you a long while to know what you were dealing with because you are so loving and persistent to keep the family connection. Its very touching how you tried and tried, but cannot create the happy family with the Nmother still in the picture.
Now its time to get rid of your guilt once and for all, and carry on without her.
The sweetest revenge is to simply be happy. Be good to yourself and to your true family members, and just enjoy life. You can do it!!!
Anonymous:
Yes ch,
I can do it, I believe in myself finally. You're right, the slit wrists was a funny - it was something I said all my life and never meant any harm by it. 8)
I'm getting stronger every day. It helps to have a board like this to vent when thougts come up, but then I express myself, and move on.
For the first time I am really enjoying my life. No more worries over getting the "Perfect" gift for the Nparents who are just going to sneer at whatever they get anyway. No more worries about not being able to please them. No more worries about missing a phone call and getting blasted for not being home when they felt like talking. No more worries about doing things my way and having to hide it from the family.
Life is good now, I smile a lot more, I don't have as many nightmares, and my kids are starting to see a more stable mom in the house. H is happier because I am happier.
This was funny - H and I got motorcycles last weekend, I just started riding and love it! I sent my Nsister pictures - the mole who will report back anything to the parents that will anger them. Motorcycles were absolutely forbidden - we couldn't even speak of them! She sends back an email saying they are cool and "Now you can come out and see me for a rally here...". Yeah, right, can't wait to drive across 6 states to see someone who just wants to make me feel bad! I didn't even write back. And it was so expected - nothing about how we are doing, what kind of bikes, are we having fun with them - just - you can come see me now. What a JOKE!
Ellie:
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nassim:
Ellie,
When I think of motorcycles, I think freedom. It seems appropriate that you have had your independence day and now have the free wind blowing in your hair.....nice visual anyway!
Nassim
Ellie:
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