This was menat to be here.
Despite of having counceling yesterday, for ten dollars, I feel very bad today. Very lonely. She said that I do not want to grow up. That I still want to be a little girl and I have nog given up the idea of a mother althought I know it is impossible.
My son told me that he is not coming this weekend because he is graduating with honors and he has to defend his thesis, and he has a lot to do about his project in chemistry, duble major, that is going to be published.
So far, I only have a firend who is coming on Sunday after church, but nobody on Friday and nobody on Saturday. On Friday I could go dancing on my own to my sance school, and I habe not gone to dance classes because it is too far. Plus I do not want to drive, I feel lazy and depressed.
The beach is making feel isolated. I do not know what I did. I do not regret, I can always move back to the city next year, but it is so much money. Not thown away, because it is giving peace, but I do not know, I stilll feel like a little girl abandoned and that I am afraid is going to be very hard to change.
Let us see if I can upload some pictures.
001 is what I see from the balcony, 002 id turning my head down to see the swimming pool, and 003 is where I have my coffee and breakfast, and lunch and a glass o wine at night, everyday.
It is a wonderful place. Thank you Lord for this opportunity.
As you can see I go up and down like a roller coaster.
