Hey all

[tayana]

I haven't posted for a long time I thought I"d stop in and say hi.  I wasn't sure the board would still be here, but I'm happy it is.

Things are going pretty good for me.  I'm mostly NC with my family.  Totally NC with my brother.  I still have very limited contact with NM because I have to get the rest of my stuff out of her house and into my house.

My partner and I are celebrating our 15 month anniversary today.  I don't get the month celebrations . . . but she seems to like them.  I have some doubts about us sometimes, but overall we're pretty happy.  We're talking about having a baby.

I'm still seeing my T and I'm working on positive thinking.  Just wanted to stop by and say hi.

[lighter]

Hey tay.

I'm so glad you stopped in.

You've been missed.

Mo2

[teartracks]

Hi Tayana,

I dropped by your blog not more than a week ago for I was wondering how you were doing.

How's the little dude doing?  I remember the first Christmas tree in our new place pictures from about (oh gosh has it been that long) four years ago.

Don't make yourself scarce!

tt

[Hopalong]

Hey Tay,

I'm glad to hear from you too.

I hope your partner is loving you, being mature, acting like an adult mate, sharing the load of your lives (and NOT being a disciplinarian to your son, which is never her place).

Do you visualize what it would be like with her, with a baby on board?

If the vision is happy and healthy and feels real, good on you.

I worry a little. Sometimes I feel that people who demand celebrations of extra "anniversaries" are kind of insatiable. Or craving more attention and devotion than I could give without great stress.

Check in with yourself, deep down, and ask your most honest and self-respecting inner voice to present you a true picture of year on year with her -- being the exact person she is now, but under more stress.

Truly, emotionally, how does it look? Feel?

Only you have the answer.

love,
Hops