So, I called my T today. He called on Monday and wanted me to come back to T, but I don't want to.
I called and left a message something like "I got your message, thanks for your concern. I have not called back because I dont know what to say. I'm just looking for a job right now. Thanks again for your concern." Then I hung up. I feel stupid of course. Part of me wanted to say I feel hopeless and therapy feels pointless. But I really only wanted to return his call without giving much information.
Anyway, he's really the only person who knows how I am feeling these days and that I can be honest with, so in that sense its a loss for sure, but I was not making any progress with him so I have to focus my energies on other things.
thanks for reading.