shout out to Muffin B.

[Hopalong]

Sister,

I bet that cake (and the utensils wrapped with dignity) was better tasting than easy junk one grabs when things are right there, at hand, no struggle.

Thinking about you.

Of course you get tired.

You have reserves of strength, and clarity and intelligence.

You are not staying there forever, I believe.

Hops

[sKePTiKal]

HI MB!  ::waving::

sometimes no news is good news and means you've been really busy and things are starting to look up for you. I surely hope this is the case. I just wanted to post that I'm thinking 'bout ya and hope you're not under the weather and that you're doin' OK.

[sKePTiKal]

Hello out there!

How are you?

[Meh]

I'm tired and discouraged and I'm looking at going to another homeless shelter because my allowable time to stay in the current one has run out. I was not planning on going from one homeless shelter to the next.

I know that I need to take action and do something but I don't know what to do and nobody else seems to know what to do either.

Obviously what I have been doing hasn't been working: just applying for jobs.

On the other hand what appears to be working for other people is not available to me. There are programs specifically for domestic violence victims to get them retrained for work. There are programs for parents.

I don't seem to fit into any of the specific categories.

Honestly I just want to have a normal boring life. The people who end up in homeless shelters have issues and some of them are verbal about it and dump all their problems out to the nearest body. I'm exhausted emotionally.

This morning one of the women in the shelter was talking on and on at me in the entry way to a bathroom where I'm obligated to clean as a chore. I had the garbage in my hand and was trying to walk out of the bathroom but she was blocking the passage way in a tight space and I had to demand of her "excuse me" three times before she would move and then she got in my way again. So it resulted in an argument. This is the woman who is going to court for stabbing her husband.

This sort of stuff just sets a bad tone to my days. That was first thing in the morning.

The person who is managing the shelter says she doesnt have time to talk to me. SO, I wrote a note about the incident and put it in her mail box. I requested that the particular person not block my exit out of rooms, that she not hover around me when I am doing my obligatory chores.

Up to this point I have managed not to get into argument with people and just ignore idle gossip- but when she is getting in my physical way its a real problem for me.

BUT that was earlier today and now I have to focus on something else. All I can say is it's just not possible for life to run very smoothly in a homeless shelter.