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KayZee:

--- Quote from: PhoenixRising on November 27, 2011, 10:54:06 AM ---
One other tidbit I ran across in my memory-log-scan journals during therapy: being physically ill was the only way, as a child, I could get my mom to (positively) pay attention to me.

--- End quote ---

What an amazing insight.  I can relate. Only time NM was ever really approximated nice, understanding or attentive was when I was sick.

So odd...Self-fulfilling prophecy.  Since my last post--and since leaving NM's house two days ago--I've broken out with itchy red patches.  Hives maybe?  Or some strange manifestation of a daycare virus I picked up from my kids?  I sort of sense that stress/emotions have something to do with it.  Or maybe just some general lack of self-care.  I've been sick on and off since September with all sorts of colds, sinus infections, low-grade fevers, and have been putting off going to the doctor because it's just so darn expensive and time-consuming.  Perhaps, it's time for me to stop ignoring my feelings/needs the way NM always did.

Sometimes the whole stoic, stiff-upper-lip thing can cause more harm than good.  Had a friend who ignored her strep-throat and ended up in the doc's office with scarlet fever.  (Doc said untreated strep-throat becomes scarlet fever...How Victorian!)

lots of love and health to you P.R.
Kay x

sKePTiKal:
Hi Kay - recently I had a general physical and the results are just about fine for someone my age - EXCEPT that the indicator for general immune level was low. I thought it was curious, as I hadn't been sick - then I remember the abcessed tooth that needed a root canal, the strange skin irritation, the sciatica acting up in my ankle....

and I wonder: does emotional abuse (for those of us who express it physically) actually CAUSE this low-level immune system??? and how come no one's spent gov't money on studying this yet??? (or have they?)

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