NC is a concept I didn't understand at first.
I get it now.
IMO, even very sane people have to limit exposure to craziness.
For those of us trying to recover and end our confusion, it's just impossible to stay in contact with craziness.
It's part of the reason I watch myself go in and out of being OK. I can't maintain my equilibrium while there's an emotioanl terrorist running amok in my life, with socieity's blessing, no less.
Because he makes good money, he expects to get away with murder and be forgiven. He feels entitled to do so. He says that out right and he BELIEVES IT WITHOUT RESERVATION.
Sadly, society buys into that, on several levels.
I have family members that buy into that. Friends who buy into that. On some level, I bought into that over the years.
If I want to escape insanity, call it what you will.... driven there or inviting it in...... if I want to find serenity and take care of myself I NEED NC.
I'm a pretty simple creature. I can't multi task self care with defending myself against covert slash and burn attacks designed to subjugate me and make me dependant. If I'm going against my nature ALL THE TIME and FIGHTING off attacks from someone who's supposed to protect me, what is left to raise my children with?
I have nothing for me... I don't have as much for the children.
That translates into eventual disaster, no matter how stoic I am. Eventually something has to give.
I'm going to stop using the term N. Nobody outside of this board gets it.
