DESNOS

[Lucky]

I just found out that something called DESNOS excists and I get the feeling that I may suffer from that instead of PTSD.
http://www.toofacedphotos.com/products/pdf_files/DESNOS.pdf

[Lucky]

Among other things I read this:
Individuals with DESNOS often develop negative views of themselves as being helpless, ineffectual, damaged, and undesirable to others.50 These perceptions spring directly from the way young children interpret the world; their preoperational thinking places them in the center of the universe, leading them to believe that they have “caused” their own mistreatment. At the same time, they often have problems taking appropriate responsibility for their actions, just as young children do. In addition, chronically traumatized individuals often feel that no one can understand their experience, or they may drastically minimize their own experiences as not having had a major impact on them or being unrelated to their current difficulties. Such individuals may emphatically insist that they were at fault for childhood molestation due to some inherent character flaw or “badness” that their abuser detected in them, and on which they acted.

[SilverLining]

Hi Lucky.  This is interesting material.  I've often suspected I and my siblings have suffered  from a sort of low grade PTSD.   My parents created an atmosphere of chronic anxiety, fear, and distress.   There weren't that many EXTREME incidents, but the stress went on, year after year.  It has taken 20+ years to feel like I am at least partly recovering.

Since the extreme incidents of abuse weren't there, it was a real challenge to understand the problem.  I've come to realize 100's of incidents of minor/covert abuse can cumulatively be just as destructive as the more obvious abusive actions.