Thank you Hops
It's been a struggle, these 18+ months, but I have worked very hard in therapy. I had my therapist read her notes for the month of June, when we went under our own contract and it was so weird....as then I couldn't reach the floor without pain. We've come a long way together. Your Amazonian thoughts!!
and PR
I certainly plan on seeking alternative ways, once my claim is settled. My nephew from Ontario was here last week and when we were in the Grand Hotel, I discreetly moved my left arm, where I have pain, and that set off some jerks, tremors, ticing and shaking. He said to stop that as I was scaring him, and don't do that again....he even wondered if I were still 'in there'. ..................and Drs. aren't interested in helping me? don't believe me? maybe they are not doctors.!!!! I'll show my counsellor on Tuesday, my first visit.... I sense that the implication of being a liar and having it in my medical records has really affected me.
Hi lighter of Mo2
The intention of the Insurance Co. was to have me brought back to a state of independent living, which I had before. I have reached that. I can do what I did before, so my therapist and I discussed this, and each of us emailed my lawyer for his input.
I feel I can no longer prolong this status quo, as I can live independently, but with a series of complications, one being pain I never had before, another being I cannot use my left leg as I could before, everything I do is slower than I did before, I feel unmotivated to get back to only partial of what I 'usta could" yet can handle it on my own, and all my shakes and jerks take place at home. My nephew suggested a sleep clinic with a camera on me all night!
Being that the femoral head was removed, I no longer can rotate my left hip...... and I am Dam*ed sure that just because I was already in a wheelchair, this is a big loss, since I cannot bring my left knee up to put on my left shoe. How about that!! but I can manually lift my left leg and place my left ankle over my right knee, put on my shoe that way, then manually lower my leg. Iow---I have to do things differently and slower. (Yotta see me getting into and out of the tub... and clean it as I gradually get out.)
This is our Thanksgiving weekend, so my lawyer won't see our emails until Tuesday, likely, but we have them out of the way. My therapist is a gem, and I will keep her on, at my expense, for maintenance, gradually letting go while maybe even gradually regaining more.
Thank you everyone for your input and concern and the sending of Amazonian thoughts of strength. That sure helps.
Love
Izzy
