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Re: Bump, Bump, Bump
« Reply #15 on: August 26, 2005, 10:02:39 PM »
Oh bittles, what a wonderful thing for her to do, and how wonderful of you - I mean this - to be able to let her do it!

The memory of this kindness to you comforts me too, now!  :D

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« Reply #16 on: August 27, 2005, 07:10:13 AM »
Hi, Dogbit--

Thanks for your comment and sharing your story.  A dress and shoes:  such a simple but extraordinary act of kindness and empathy to be appreciated for life!

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« Reply #17 on: August 28, 2005, 01:17:34 AM »
Thank you so much for this forum.
Thank you also for the sweet story. It softened my heart.
I too was not wanted. I was the seventh child to parents who resented children deeply. Twins boys born before me died, and were greatly revered. What a disappointment I must have been as a small girl. My mother called me the runt of the litter. At 47 I'm still trying not to bump quite so hard in life. This site is precious to me, and it's my first day here!
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« Reply #18 on: August 31, 2005, 11:40:55 AM »
Hi Voxanne,

Thanks for your reply.  Glad you're here!

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« Reply #19 on: November 07, 2005, 07:46:22 PM »
Thank you for sharing this.

I am finally just figuring out that my parents are both narcissists, and your story and the stories of others on this thread really brought it home to me.

At his wedding weekend, my brother thanked me for taking the flak from them...He got less as a boy, and the second child. I worked really hard to protect him from them and it worked really well.

My mom was the cookie person for lots of other kids when I was little - but she could never listen to me. I think because she could never listen to herself, that's why I had to teach her that she is OK for being who she is. My dad's the same way. I think they're starting to get it...I managed to get some geographical distance, I'm struggling to find my own place in the world.

I am resisting the impulse to write the whole story...Its funny, I'm an accomplished artist (www.drawclose.com) whos biggest professional block now is getting my work published/shown because I can't see its value. Because I struggle with a right to be here, and be heard.

Anyway thank you for this space and for this thread. All the stories break my heart because they are so like mine. And I don't feel so crazy or alone anymore.

Jessica

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« Reply #20 on: February 23, 2006, 09:37:05 AM »
I have been off the board for ages, so I just read the good Drs. story.  Wow!  My mother was not wanted, I was not wanted at all--so similar are our stories.
Now, why, I wonder did I so want my child?  He has been the light of my life and, somewhat, my reason for living since his birth.  He is turning out to be almost more than I hoped for--despite having a rocky time for about 10 years (teens, early 20's). 
I don't cling to him, but just sit back and wait for him to come to me with his questions and problems.  I try to give my best help and advice to him, but really let him find his own way.  He's smart, capable and resourceful, and I don't worry about him too much anymore.
How can I have 2 generations of unwanted kids (my mother and myself), and love my child so much?  How is that possible?  Any answers?

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« Reply #21 on: February 24, 2006, 10:27:15 AM »
Jacmac, good description--thanks!  I get what you are saying totally.

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« Reply #22 on: April 30, 2006, 06:09:12 AM »
Jessica, I also have trouble getting my work and myself out there.  I have been told my writing is quite profound, emotionally. I have seen how it heals others, or opens doors to healing.  But, to put myself out there feels like running out in front of a mac truck.  I know otherwise, but the feelings are still there.  I work at it though, little bit by bit.

I was child #1.  Parents, who together would make a complete narcissist, wanted a boy.  They had three girls before the son finally came.  Without a lot of history here (Perhaps later in another thread), I divorced after 32 years a manic depressive Narcissist who has 3 personalities (my observation, not a diagnosis).  The divorce was quite dangerous for me physically and emotionally, but our 2 children were grown, thank goodness.  MY second sister has a history of drug and alcohol and has MS - she functions best when telling siblings and mother (father dead) what to do.  My next younger sister has been in bed on and off for a year with Reiter's syndrome,also an auto immune disease.  She functions well as long as she perceives "God" has chosen her as his favorite. However, the obsessive fundamentalist part of her  becomes threatened and attacks when her "best of the chosen" gets threatened.  My brother was a multi millionaire at age 6, and functions very N like today.  We sisters were not given that financial opportunity as children and it caused great pain as love/money got muddled together.  My first child was born on welfare. 


In looking back in my history, I search for a mentor.  I know both grandmother's loved me, but I could not open up to either one of them. I don't think I had one in childhood. Still cannot open up to mother in order to tell her who I am etc (she probes) for she attacks me behind my back to my children and siblings...why go there?!  I did have a mentor during the 2 year divorce though, who as far as I am concerned was God-sent.  I could talk and talk and talk with no judgment.  I also had a best girlfriend during the latter marriage years who helped me stay together during the divorce.

Trauma is a bear to deal with.


I am a Divine Design, a miraculous creation of Love, Light,and Peace.

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« Reply #23 on: April 30, 2006, 07:52:28 AM »
Mr Grossman,

Your post touched me deeply, as it is everything I stand for in my ministry and life...helping families, children, etc.  I'm currently majoring in Child Development, hoping that somehow, when I get into the homes of hurting people and families, my words of advice and guidance, will bring about one less incident of a child growing up Narcissistic or Borderline, a parent coming to their senses about their own NPD or BPD...somehow, if I can just reach 1, I want that to be more than enough.

Blessyou

~Laura
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