CC,
Snort, Snort!!
Thank you CC for guiding me toward something to be thankful for on Thanksgiving. You gave me the ability to look beyond my feelings of sadness. This helped me get past my pain on the holiday. It helped me understand that I had every right to feel the way I did. He had no right to do what he did. He sucked everything out of me emotionally and spiritually. It hit me, poof be gone with your N bad self. I suddenly thought, "ya, duh, no wonder I always felt tired, he drained me emotionally, its a wonder I had any feelings left. " You continue to take take take and pretty soon theres nothing left. You have to deposit to replenish every now and then, did he do that? Nope he sure did not!
The light bulb went off with this one!
I am thankful that I am sitting here alone hurting over this relationship. I might be hurting over what happened but atleast I am able to hurt and by gosh my hurt is once again about me, it is for my feelings. I used to hurt because I could not please him, couldn't say the right things to him, never did anything right, blah blah blah. Felt good that my pain was about me again, not because of him blaming me for hurting his feelings or not being able to please him." Dang right it hurts, dang right my hurt is all about my feelings again. Yup, when you have an emotional vampire sucking the life out of ya, the sooner you rid it the less emotions they suck out of ya.
Heehee, longer than an hour, snort. How about that saying, I love it.