Pray that house sells

[Ami]

Well--- I have a cleaning lady --twice a week-now..
  My H wants to bring people over at any time. For me,I feel that if s/one is a friend, then they should not "care" if the house is messy. My H's "pride" and joy is his house more than it is my "pride and joy".
My greatest desire is to have my "insides" 'normal and at peace. I appreciate my house,but I know that it will not change my "insides' --no matter how good or bad it looks.
 .My house looks good now,but it has not really helped with my 'insides".The board has done that and God.
 However,I still think that when you have kids and especially a D with problems such as yours , the house can only be "so" good .
 That is my opinion, anyway.I have made so many mistakes that i am reluctant to even "give "one, though.
Kelly,I think that you are doing very,very well with all your challenges. I think that you are putting very high standards on yourself that are close to impossible to meet. That is how I see it.I could be mistaken.               Love to You   Ami

((((((((((((((((Kelly)))))))))))))))))

[Overcomer]

So my two daughter had a fight and the autistib daughter called 911 and the cops came!

[lighter]

OH NO!   What happened?

[Ami]

Dear Kelly,
  I am going to say s/thing,honestly. Compost what does not fit. I think that you are doing what most mother's do when they have kids. You are thinking that you CAN have order and "peace" in the house. Now, that my kids are grown,i have order in the house. If there is no peace,it is b/c my "head" is driving me crazy-lol.
 I look back and see that it was impossible to have those 'high' standards for life with kids. Maybe, everyone has to see this for themselves.I put so much pressure on myself to be the "perfect" mother--another N lie. My kids grew up well b/c they had the basic elements in life. I certainly did not have to drive myself so crazy trying to be perfect. However,I was always "out running" my memories of my mother. I over compensated  b/c I never wanted them to suffer like I did.
 I strived too much.I put myself through too much stress. S##t happens when you have kids. It happens all the time. You are tired and stressed most of the time(IME)
  Like everything else,if I could go back,I would not strive for an A plus,but  B or a B minus.
 Kelly,I can see you in my mind's eye. You are warm and loving.You are full of fun. You are sweet and a delight as a mother(most of the time,like all of us). Your kids know that you love them. That is much more than you or I got. That is enough for them to grow up well.
  That is just my perspective.I,often, wish that you lived next door.It would be fun to have you over for a cup of coffee--huh?
 Anyway,I hope that I did not overstep my bounds.Since ,I am in the next stage,I have a different perspective and just wanted to share it.  Sorry about the police. They have come here several times when people dialed 911 in error. My M even dilaed 911 to ask which restaurants were good around here---bleh. So, they had to come over for that, too.
I guess that what I am saying is that all the "stress" with the kids will pass.The messy house,soon, will be neat.You are a beautiful person.,Kelly. That is what matters.             Love   Ami

[Overcomer]

My  20 Year old poured water on her and she freaked and called 911 Them she tells  the cops that her arm hurt!  i should have made the older come out and face the cops!

[lighter]

The older sib threw water, not hot I take it, on your younger autistic child and she called the police and made the part about her arm hurting?

Hmmmm..... what did the police end up saying to her?  I assume she was questioned and I can't beleive they didn't want to hear from the 18yo.

What did you say to her about making the call?

I don't have so much trouble with that part.... as the part about her arm hurting.

I wonder if she thought she'd be in trouble for calling them and felt she had to make it more seriouse or what?  She didn't want her sister to go to jail for something she didn't do.... did she?

I was just talking to someone about how we need to teach women to TAKE ACTION IMMEDIATELY before things escalate and I'd feel bad saying she should be criticized for phoning the police.

[Overcomer]

No there was nothing that warranted the call.  to my 12 year old everything is an emergency.   Maybe sister pinched her in retaliation for her pinching her.  It is stupid sibling stuff that the autistic daughter cannot unerrtand or deal with appropriataly-but big sister should be nicer so it doesnt get so escalated!

[Ami]

Dear Kelly,
 I know that we had this discussion before,but did you think that vaccinations were a factor in your' D's autism?      Ami

[Overcomer]

Yes!  She was a perfect little baby.  She did not have ANY symptoms until after two.  It is a shame-she smiled so big and looked right into the camera at six months but would not at 2

[Ami]

When do they have the vaccinations? I can't remember.                         

[Overcomer]

Well I think one year and 18 Months and two years.  I know a gal whose son got it after the one year shots but my daughter got it after the two year shots.  Some kids just shut down after being exposed to the preservatives in the vaccines.

[Ami]

Kelly,in your heart--do you think that it was the vaccines?

[Overcomer]

Absolutely!  Without a shadow of a doubt!

[Ami]

Kelly,  Are you part of a lawsuit,if you care to answer?

[Overcomer]

Well I tried but the statute of limitations ran out and the drug companies are so powerful that they will never be held accountable!  I guess I need someone like Erin Brockovich!