Dear Iphi,
Thank you for your responses. I really appreciate them.
I realize, today, that I am not connected ,from the head to the heart. Inside, is sludge, mud, that blockes the connection until I am a hurting ball ,with emotions stuck, unexpressed and painful. I see that,now.
Lise was talking about her neice(young child)who has so many strong emotions and expresses them. I think of Mimi, my Yorkie,who "expresses" her emotions.
*I* ,on the other hand, get stuck, afraid, feeling "bad", self doubting, lacking in trust etc when I get feelings.
I guess that I have to excavate the closed passageway from my head to my heart.
I have to do it b/c it is hurting my body(stomach) and limiting my life.
Can anyone relate to this? Ami