Amber:
I'm internalizing this myself too, so I write it out, more for myself, as I have trouble applying the concept consistently. I do notice when I miss an opportunity for silence, but here goes.
There's a moment when you (general) don't react to what your child just said... and it's just a second or two, and you have think...
Is what I'm about to say necessary?
It's more of a reluctant prod to self, rather than real question you intend to answer, IME. It's not a real question, just yet, and that's all there is. There's no follow up... bc it sits there,
will this get me more of what I want?
Nope.
Just that initial attention, and it's not a pleasant feeling, it almost feels like being self chastised. It was an epiphany for me.
When you start asking that question, and listening for the answer... be ready to notice things you won't be pleased with.
The whole goal is providing the silence and space for our kids to focus on their part, and not on us. We chime in, we take the focus. It's interesting to see the shock on their face when we change things up, and take back our energy.
We fail to provide the distraction they've become accustomed to. They have some choice about what they pay attention to then. Maybe they buck a little harder, trying to engage us back into the dance, but we resist, and they're left with themselves, their words, their actions, and self responsibility.
I'm guessing some kids buck a lot harder than others. My oldest is very reserved, most of the time, around me. She's very sensitive to what I say, how I look at her.
When I read that any interaction with a child, that's not nurturing, is abuse.... that got me pinpoint focused on what I'm doing and saying around oldest dd. I have some very big habits that I'm not proud of, but I understand, and forgive myself for. I think I used to try to face beat her into compliance, or feeling more responsible, nicer, kinder than she was feeling, particulary about me.
I forgive her for being mean, and I forgive me for reacting to it, and not being able to think my reactions through.
I've been through a lot too. Not just the kids. I cut myself slack, and work towards what I want for all of us.
I SEE MY T TODAY!
I really like her. She's about a foot taller than me. Very thin, which I am not, and has the carriage of a monk.
::nodding::
Lighter