Sometimes life can just reach a point of being so damned stupid, I wonder why I go on. But go on I must.
When I think of all the traumas, mentally and physically, that I have endured, and moved on, I didn’t know I had reached my limit with this last accident.
When I ‘ blanked out’ before the car knocked me down it, afterward, made me suspicious (that I might have just seen the beginning of another trauma, and shut it out!) Now I have believed for a long time that I have shut out the hurtful things, both physical and emotional, moved on and been the “oh so strong person”.
Now I have a strange doctor verifying that my physical injury was a mental trauma, and I turned my mental trauma into the tremors, to avoid losing my mind (my wording to keep it simple.)
This okay with me if life didn’t go on with its little messes. I have been coughing for 3 years (yes since after the accident.) I had reasons that were fixed, 3 times re meds, once with a lung infection (aspirated food) and in general a steady cough with this poking out in the nooks and crannies of my teeth, that seemed bring on a cough, so I bought a mouth guard, blah blah, and now since about April or May of 2012, I have been bugged by this dry persistent cough. (If I wrap an Ace Bandage round my neck, close to choking me, I can get a night’s sleep…oh yes and my teeth feel like upholstered in sheepskin, (I still await the dental report) and are so out of line that I still stuff the inside, with wax, to smooth the texture for my tongue, but it is too late for my tongue, as it has a mess of loose skin and a few calluses on it, and no one to look after it, until I receive this Dental report. I saw him in March/2012
Now I go crazy. How my infestation began with fruit flies I’ll never know, but I had one and it was all soon cleared up except for “One?” who awaits me at my computer every day. I was mistaken. I went to take the garbage down, and there was a hole in the backside and it was swarming with fruit flies. I patched that and got rid of that and set about the killing of the beasties!
I set up a trap but in the meantime found that those left behind, migrated to the bathroom and kitchen, plus there are now more than one in my computer area which never seems to light. I have white floors and they are washed, but right now are specked from all the swatting, and then I began to wonder if my cough was in my head or if I swallowed a fruit fly in the night- EYEcccH!…..stay out of my bedroom you mangy critters, and they sit on walls, counter sides, toilet edges, mirrors (twice as many) my piano keys WTF??????
The computer one just flew by again, but none in the bathroom, as I found they were hiding under the rim----this was with the disturbance of that garbage bag. There is only one dead in my trap, and I (again) cleaned my drain )(as I watched a video about sewer flies that cost a guy $65,000.00 to fix his house up and be rid of them.
Karla helped me the first round and I spoke to her like Carol Burnett’s old lady who sits on the bench with Tim Conway, and usually ends up hitting him with her purse…..for coming on to her. I tol’ her about the fruit flies and how tiring it was for an ol’ lady to keep runnin’ after them, so I decided that I would sit quietly in my chair and wait for them to come to me. They did and I smashed them all to hell, but then I told my friend , Edytha, and Edytha said, “Well Margaret, did you ever wonder why they came to you?” Heh, heh, heh!
Anyway, I have lost Karla, so to speak, but I must still have a say in this. Her last invoice and paper trail was Sept 28/12 . Dr. V has recommended an aqua therapist for 10-12 weeks, at 1 hour per session, then, a pool pass for me to then be independent. ME NO LIKE! I have no bathing suit, I do not swim, I don’t like huge bodies of water (what did that have to do with anything before?) and I have to dress and undress on an bed---are there beds in the pool halls? ….a shower before and after, with whose help might I ask? Hugh Hefner? Let’s get real, when I get my money I will spend it whatever way I want, and for now I am having Karla, on MY time AND Money, CASH, 1 DAY A WEEK
Looks like it Court, April 15, but I think my lawyer is going to try to avoid my trip to Vancouver to the Orthopaedic Specialist, in November, so who knows.
So all I can say is that now that I have a history of a mental disorder, it might be difficult for me to convince a doctor that I have a real physical problem. I sure hope not, as I am still think about having swallowed a fruit fly, that caused this cough--------------- heh heh heh!
I did have a chest x-ray last Wednesday and then when I see my so-called Dr. I want a visit with an ENT man! Case closed!
I’d like to ask a Physicist why, with differences in sizes, fruit flies can out fly-run-skip and jump a flyswatter and me.
Last check found 5 (now dead) in bathroom and a mess on the front of the stainless steel sink (clean and reflective of 1000s). Why did I sprinkle salt there? It’s an old story about catching a bird!
Hope you enjoyed my misery!
I just hadda tell someone!
XXOO
Izzy
