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Hopalong:
Is it taboo for you to reach out to the ex wife and ask about nephews?
Wishing you peace, all the good things coming into the silence, Boat.
Hops
Meh:
@Hops Well, she is remarried and has more kids and a new husband etc. It's just something that she wants to be gone and over with which is understandable.
I've never met her in person and I don't think I have ever even talked to her on the phone. I think I sent her maybe 2-3 emails. I avoided her and my brother for a very long time because I knew the situation would not turn out well.
Meh:
You know that mental state of trying to make one's SELF SMALL and out of other people's WAY. Not bothering other people... Kind of like trying to take up less space and stuff...
Well even at my age I go in and out of this place of smallness. I don't want to take over everything I just want to be me. I want my own space. Literally.
I especially like those people whom LIKE it when I am myself. :)
Ever notice how some people like you more when you are yourself....and then there are just those other people.... I don't know it's morning time here. I literally feel as though maybe there is not enough space for me to brush my teeth here. Sigh.
:( ): Should go back to writing some kind of gratitude list and give myself a pep talk Or just come here to write a little more. Been out of my writing phase for quite a few years now.
Just feeling okay should this be a struggle... really !! ? !! JUST FEELING OKAY JUST FEELING AT EASE JUST BEING ONE's SELF shrug
In fact I feel like I am going to blow up LOL feel really uncomfortable and uptight.
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: Green Bean on December 13, 2013, 10:49:20 AM ---You know that mental state of trying to make one's SELF SMALL and out of other people's WAY. Not bothering other people... Kind of like trying to take up less space and stuff...
Well even at my age I go in and out of this place of smallness. I don't want to take over everything I just want to be me. I want my own space. Literally.
I especially like those people whom LIKE it when I am myself. :)
Ever notice how some people like you more when you are yourself....and then there are just those other people.... I don't know it's morning time here. I literally feel as though maybe there is not enough space for me to brush my teeth here. Sigh.
:( ): Should go back to writing some kind of gratitude list and give myself a pep talk Or just come here to write a little more. Been out of my writing phase for quite a few years now.
Just feeling okay should this be a struggle... really !! ? !! JUST FEELING OKAY JUST FEELING AT EASE JUST BEING ONE's SELF shrug
In fact I feel like I am going to blow up LOL feel really uncomfortable and uptight.
--- End quote ---
Completely understand this. I get like everything just gets stuffed in so that nothing can move. A therapist I used to see compared it to that drawer or cupboard that most people have at home that they bung stuff in when they don't really know what to do with it and eventually you shove one more thing in and everything comes spilling out. I find when I get that uptight I usually end up having a really big cry and it eases off after that. I hope it gives a little bit for you soon, Green.
Meh:
My father invited me to spend Christmas with him after I flipped out and screamed at him on my telephone. WHAT THE FERK is wrong with him. Creep. He still has my stuff. I can't stand him. I am not going to respond to his email.
It just makes me uncomfortable that he doesn't take a clue that he has like no normal social understanding of "go away" and "don't take my stuff"
I want my own life
I want respect
I want to be healthy
I know what I want and also who and what I don't want in my life.
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