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Meh:
:) Today I set up a physical exam appointment in a couple of weeks. Also dermatologist appointment because I had been diagnosed with skin cancer a few years ago... and tentatively a dental appointment for March. :)
I feel sort of relieved that I can actually do this stuff now. Sigh. Wish it was all happening quicker but at least it is happening. Not being able to get proper health care etc has been bothering me.
I still need to review the details and make sure I understand my insurance. (It's not great but at least it gets my foot in the door) Thank goodness. I feel better about this.
Meh:
Had to bring up the issue with the lead-roommate who is the "therapist" and subleasing the 4 rooms in the house that she rents.
She walked into my room in the morning on my day off of work. I was still in bed not fully awake and undressed.
Not happy. This would only be okay if it was something worthy of being woken up for (emergency, or pre-discussed situation)
She has serious boundary problems and my boundaries when violated = high anxiety.
So I was cooking a hamburger and I explained to her that I'm not okay with her coming into my room I told her I wasn't dressed etc. etc.
She actually got sarcastic with me about it. She is a licensed mental health therapist. Same person who said that her mother and grand-mother were bi-polar. She also is sharing the same room as her 18 year old son lives in now .....WTF.
The reason why she decided to come into my room was because one of the dogs was "out"..... something which happens regularly. She could have left a paper note in the kitchen I would have seen it when I woke up. The dogs are not exactly well cared for anyhow. The "things" aka pets don't get regular walks, maybe they get taken out on an excursion every one to two weeks. Her dogs, her problem. I was pissed.
So that was uncomfortable. But apparently she also did the same thing to my other roommate because she thought "she heard her alarm clock going off".... which wasn't happening.
Any whoop. At the library at the moment. Moving forward.
Meh:
I have moved so many times that I am finding it very difficult to find the motivation to do this again. Moving stressed me out every time.
It's the unknowns, the process of knowing that it's always a gamble. Though often one can kind of get a read on the situation. I knew when I moved into this current place I was never going to be happy here.
Heck life is a gamble
Relationships are a gamble.
Some seem to gamble less and just get it RIGHT more often though.
Meh:
At Work:
In office, in packed together cubicles.
There is this guy who today and I was getting distracted by his conversation. Heard "Raunchy" "STD's"... and "Dryness".... etc. etc. Then as the day progressed he kept on talking about how he was questioned by police for a report of assault because he pushed some woman sounds like a prior girlfriend or his ex wife I have no idea.. I guess this is what Valentine's day brings out in this guy...
Any who I sat there thinking, Okay ignore, ignore, ignore... But I'm at my desk, and he is at his desk... and you know I feel like I'm not in a work place when I hear this kind of stuff.... So I sent an email to one of my managers asking if they can re-broadcast an email to people asking for toned down a work appropriate conversations.. This has already been done before and I didn't prompt it that time.
It's a call center and customer's have complained about what things they hear on the telephone.
So I got called into an office with the human resource person who I am intimidated by LOL and the head department manager and they ask me who specifically was saying this stuff and I told them what dude it was.
Sigh, I Should probably just try to be classy and calm about it. I always get stressed out like I am going to be punished for saying something.
I was sitting there wondering why nobody else around that area says anything about the situation.
I feel like a 6 year old who is being told by their grandmother to go stand in the corner.
I even left work today wondering if I would be terminated IDK.
Shrug. It is what it is.
Meh:
Life feels like a pressure cooker sometimes LOL
I woke up this morning at 4 AM with a nightmare... that one of my co-worker's relatives was spitting up blood and laying in a parking lot and we were standing there helplessly waiting for the ambulance to come.
I think it's because I now have a male roommate that gets off of work at about 1 AM or something like that.. and then come in a while later. IDK what is going on with me but my sleep is screwed up recently going through find-new-room-mates..... figure-out-insurance-- budget budget budget... the regular anxieties.
I Stress out about everything.
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