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Hopalong:
Roses, rhubarb and friendly neighbors!
I am so glad for you, Sea.

Seems to me a WHOLE LOT OF RELAXING needs to happen now.
Just puttering while you unpack, getting rid of/donating more stuff...
winnowing it down to simplicity if that feels right.

You can have serenity even while you enjoy all the rooms!

I'm feeling such celebration of your at-last safe landing.

Don't worry if it feels like it all took a big bite out of you.
It did, but you will heal as you're good to yourself.

love,
Hops

sea storm:
Thanks for that, Hops.

I am so tired I just want to sleep and this has been going on for days. I am going with it and sleeping about 14 hours a day at least. There is no short cuts or vitamins for this. I haven't anything left to make myself go, go, go.  I just know that I haven't worked so hard for years and now I am so much older and it takes its toll.

Haven't heard what you are doing lately. Hope all is well or if its not that you are sharing.

Lots of love,
Sea

Twoapenny:
Sea, I am so glad that you're in.  What an epic!  I hadn't been keeping up with this thread, have just read all the way through.  It is so odd that, at times of crisis, we seem to be able to summon every unhelpful person within a twenty mile radius and have them all turn up (or not, as the case may be!).  I had movers cancel on me the day before once, it does leave you in a place of whaaaaat???!!!!  Such a monumental task.  I'm so glad you're in and all of that is behind you now.  Enjoy your sleep and your new neighbours, they sound like nice people.

Hopalong:
Sea,
I feel as though I'm just now nearing the surface of my recovery from the move.
It has been two years and it has taken that full amount of time to recover
my equilibrium, adapt to the change, and feel fully integrated into my new
location. Moving in your 60s feels very different from 20s or 30s. But it's
doable, and we done did it, eh?

The good side is all along the way, despite feeling below-par and having
some other issues derail me from time to time--I have also had moments of
JOY in my new home. Things as simple as the look of the light. Mulberries.
What it looks like in the snow. A fox.

So it's not like it's been awful-always-daily-for-two-years-solid. It's been...
this is different, I am weary and changed, but if I abide with this, maybe
energy and new life will be coming. Right now, I believe they are arriving.

A full two years' adaptation is just what it took. Once I accepted that
there was a healing timetable it was best for me to go along with instead
of controlling, it got better.

(Two full years doesn't mean I'm totally decluttered and unpacked, though.
Home office is still a mess, with boxes I hide under the bed as I don't want
to deal with them. But it's okay with me. I'll do it when I do it, and that's
that.)

Your exhaustion is just what it is, and very real. So sleeping for weeks or
months and eating well and doing the smallest things...is just fine.

Trust nature. You are strong but let nature heal you in her own timetable.

love
Hops







And that doesn't mean I've finished unpacking. Home office is only halfway.

But all of this, is now okay with me.

sea storm:
Thank you for sharing your story about moving, Hops.  Some moves are easily done. I actually named one of my houses easlydone.  Just briefly. that was the Bed and Breakfast in Tofino. Well, it takes a lot to move sometimes and it is hard to explain it all.
I can't explain to people why I am so tired but I am and I just have to go with it. I am morphing into something new I think. This is my lovely space and I am not inviting chaos in. I have gone a bit far in that direction and unplug the telephone and have no desire to join in on the information highway.

Not putting boxes away. That made me laugh and feel you are a kindred spirit. Who cares/???????? About boxes!!! Apparently a lot of people hold strong opinions on how quickly a box must be unpacked. It is hard to avoid these people because they are everywhere.The lady next door knocked on the door to tell me that my raspberries are ripe now. And that my car window was open. One could not inivent these things to describe a person. As you know, I am saving up the raspberries to rub all over my body during the next full moon. Ha ha. I do pick them of course, I am not completely crazy.

I have times when I perk up a bit and go into the garden. I am becoming a serious bore with little to talk about. I only read detective novels from the second hand store. There is little understanding of seasonal work.  Where you drain everything you've got and have to recover. I am not even interested in Japanese and Chinese antiques. I better get over that as it is my business. I have orders but I don't know where the stuff is. I hired a lady to help me unpack next Monday.

I does take a long time to put down new roots. Especially after ones roots were on fire.

It is so reassuring that it is normal to feel tired. That life was worn out anyway. I am such a slow healer. It has taken seven years to be calm after the Narcissist. I had to move to complete the cycle and send that dream off somewhere else.

Lots of love,
Sea

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