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Gaining Strength:
I know this is progress but it feels like regression. I am so filled with resentment. After three meditations I was able to connect what I am feeling today with abandonment. Not the original but with abandonment by people who promised caring. Of course I know this goes to a layer that sits above the original.
I don't feel the shame usually connected to abandonment and resentment. I think this is because having processed a layer of shame I now have this stuff to process.
I was having more dreams that brought up this abandonment. I tried to get in touch with images of caring mother figures. I could not. As I tried I first felt the anger and then the resentment u serenata and then the abandonment which should have been clearer because of the two things that were so heavy on my mind - not being included to my husbands cousin's daughters wedding. He was her only 1st cousin. And a memory of someone who was caring and kind to many but only up to a level. These images that wouldn't leave me gave way to abandonment and then on a deeper level the connection to my family which completely rejected me but claimed love.
This is more processing. Bough I feel wretched I do believe it is more healing. I am so fascinated that I is not bringing up shame. Abandonment and being excluded has always been shaming to me in the past.
lighter:
--- Quote from: Gaining Strength on April 15, 2016, 10:28:23 AM ---.....it is more healing. I am so fascinated that I is not bringing up shame. Abandonment and being excluded has always been shaming to me in the past.
--- End quote ---
Observer mode is a helpful mode, ((GS.))
Are you keeping a journal?
Lighter
Gaining Strength:
Heard today on Fareed Zakaria - what makes Google such a successful,place to work? According to an in depth study it is psychological safety, being heard and valued. That sounds to me to be the exact opposite of voicelessness. This is powerful information for all but especially for those who have at some time been voiceless.
I will look for a link to this segment with Charles Duhigg. For now here is a link to the book Duhigg wrote about his findings.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/03/27/books/review/smarter-faster-better-by-charles-duhigg.html?_r=0
Gaining Strength:
I am posting a link to an all too brief article which is really About energy psychology. I honestly know nothing about that but what fascinated me is the treatment of "unconscious fear" and the amygdala. I have been dealing with bringing MY unconscious fear to the consciousness. But I have struggled with putting it into words. This article does it beautifully.
Perhaps the most important aspect of this for me is that I think a large portion of the field of psychology and psychiatry is unaware of this distinction. I am certain that the vernacular about anxiety is unaware. I'll go out on a limb and say that chronic and trauma based anxiety cannot be understood without grasping this distinction, and if not understood, then not treated.
I'll go out on a limb and make the conjecture that anxiety is a debilitating 21st century disorder that effects broad swaths of the population. It is time to provide effective, accessible and affordable treatment.
https://acepblog.org/2015/08/21/the-amygdala-fear-and-energy-psychology-contemplations-on-a-neuroscientists-blog/
Gaining Strength:
Oh my Lighter. I thought I had proofread my post. I can't see past the typos.
I journal here. I cannot keep up with a hard journal. I have started so many. But on another hand I have wondered why
for yEars but I find writing here more compelling. I don't understand why that is but I am able to bare my soul here and it has something to do with being in a place where someone might understand. I have been so alone with my thoughts for so long that perhaps I have an inordinate need to connect. I really don't know.
And I agree with you about the observer mode. I see the observer role so critical to the dialogue between consciousness and subconsciousness.
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