What gives you your sense of self worth

[Twoapenny]

I think the self worth work is coming along!  The new flat has helped so much, I feel very different being here.  There's some nice countryside around us that we are exploring and I have a friend coming to stay in a couple of months' time so we've been checking out cafes and pubs so we've got some nice places to take her to.

I have reorgnised my time again; sometimes I get to a point where my way of doing things just isn't working.  I don't like feeling that I'm being pulled in all directions so I sat down last night and got myself organised.  I'm trying to do the things for myself first; it's always self care that goes out of the window first when I'm busy.  So I'm trying to meditate and do yoga first thing, and to get out for a walk if possible (or just to sit on the step and get some fresh air if we can't get out).  I am trying with healthy meals but I must admit that is a wagon I keep falling from!  But try, try and try again.  I do feel better in myself and just more hopeful that things are changing for the better.

One big change is that I find I am thinking a lot about wanting a man in my life.  For a long time now this hasn't really been a priority and the few dates I've been on haven't gone well.  But perhaps the change of scenery and the release from the negativity of living so close to my parents has given me a bit more of a free rein, so it is something that keeps going through my mind.

[Hopalong]

Hear, hear, Tupp!
It really hit me when you said recently that "99%" of your energy goes to your boy...then it became so real. I can barely imagine the isolation and stress of what you deal with every day.

So I'm really glad you're still caring enough to CRAVE self care, even when it's hard to do. Girl, you DESERVE those life-sustaining healthful foods and greens that give you energy. Lord knows.

I hope you can get out on more walks or just resort to dancing in your living room like a maniac to get your cardio done. (Me, I argue with myself about walking the pooch, I'm so lazy. But I'm craving potent health and energy too. Thanks for sharing this issue.) I've walked her several days this week and come home smacking myself on the head going, duh, notice how you feel better, have more energy, etc? (She has a doggie door and large yard so I'm not torturing her, but there's still no real excuse for not doing a mile or two every day. I know I avoid it because it can feel lonely, but finally figured out that listening to FM radio on my cell with ear buds makes a big difference to how the walk goes for me.)

And.
MAN yearning.

Me TOO.
(Though given my new "job" if I meet one any time soon he'll be shuffling down the hall of the fancy "independent living" apartments on his rollator...)

xo
Hops

[Twoapenny]

Hear, hear, Tupp!
It really hit me when you said recently that "99%" of your energy goes to your boy...then it became so real. I can barely imagine the isolation and stress of what you deal with every day.

So I'm really glad you're still caring enough to CRAVE self care, even when it's hard to do. Girl, you DESERVE those life-sustaining healthful foods and greens that give you energy. Lord knows.

I hope you can get out on more walks or just resort to dancing in your living room like a maniac to get your cardio done. (Me, I argue with myself about walking the pooch, I'm so lazy. But I'm craving potent health and energy too. Thanks for sharing this issue.) I've walked her several days this week and come home smacking myself on the head going, duh, notice how you feel better, have more energy, etc? (She has a doggie door and large yard so I'm not torturing her, but there's still no real excuse for not doing a mile or two every day. I know I avoid it because it can feel lonely, but finally figured out that listening to FM radio on my cell with ear buds makes a big difference to how the walk goes for me.)

And.
MAN yearning.

Me TOO.
(Though given my new "job" if I meet one any time soon he'll be shuffling down the hall of the fancy "independent living" apartments on his rollator...)

xo
Hops

Lol, I quite fancy a rollator myself!  We went to Boccia last night - Paralympic sport, like bowling but sitting down (just in case no-one's heard of it!).  Really nice group of people, my son really enjoyed himself and they insisted I had a go so I showed them my total lack of sporting prowess in any situation   I would like to meet someone, although I'm aware that I've got a lot fussier as the years have gone by so I've probably narrowed the search down a fair bit!