You care what your mother thinks you want her to see reason .....to become reasonable, but she's just not, Boat.
It's sad, but the only thing you control between you, is you. Your thoughts, words and actions.
Her words and actions go straight into your head and nervous system. She controls your altitude with her attitude, seems like?
I'm not saying there's an alternative. I'm simply wishing I could fit you with a helmet to keep your mom's words and attitude OUT. Just bounce them right off while you remain above her immature, childish brat fest.
You tried so hard to make a good day of it. I think she knew you would.
Do you think she knew what to say....when she asked you over? To get you there ...trying so hard....bending over backwards?
I think she wanted you working hard to please her while she wrings her hands and finds fault. Crap childhood or mental health issues..... doesn't matter, imo. She is who she is ....broken and unable to do better.
You deserve better and I hope you make new connections at the music venues and book stores....wherever you venture out.
Your mom can't change. She gets something from being trapped in misery. I wonder if the dynamic might shift if you tried less and left when she complained too much. Chop chop, mom. No drama....just ....gotta go, bye.
Keep seeking joy, Boat. For yourself. Maybe look at your mom with curiosity....guess how many complaints she'll do drop in an hour. See if your refusal to bend over backwards impacts her behavior....like a science project.
It's not you. It's her, imo.
Lighter
