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Mindfulness and codependence thread
lighter:
Hops: My T was a vegetarian for a while and she noticed a decline in her health, general feeling of well-being and strength. Her body needs class A protein, even though her spirit doesn't feel good about, like yours.
I do adore lentils, but have a sensitivity to them! Very sad about that. If you're cooking them with the insta pot, use the regular brown ones.... they're yummy no matter how long they cook. The orange ones get starchy, like potatoes and the black ones are delicate and amazing when not overcooked, which is a trick to accomplish.
If you buy pre chopped onions, carrots and celery that's best for your back.
I can't help with the insta pot. I'm afraid of mine too! Haven't tried it yet either.
Amber, the lake grill is coated in grease.... can't clean it, bc all the metal parts are a breath away from failing. I need to pull it apart, order replacement parts and rebuild it as it's attached to the deck and propane.
Quick thinking! I'm glad no one was injured, including the brisket, yum!
Tupp, I have moments when there's zero vertigo and moments when I feel it in my eyes then moments when it man handles my brain and threatened to throw me sideways. This morning, busy in the kitchen with plans to organize and edit in house....I feel very solid. No vertigo.
Yesterday, roads closures all over the place meant I had to straighten up my approach 3 times while parking! A regular parking jobVance visiting and normally bad Friday traffic was so bad Waze took me over a mountain to avoid it. Was terrible to see all the flattened trees in that area. Just me and 1 car. Surreal....sad reminder.
Lighter
lighter:
Today I noticed a visceral heat shoot through my face and body when listening to a news station refer to the assassinated CEO as a"healthcare".....
professional?
Worker?
I can't remember what came after "healthcare," which snatched me right back to custody trial mediations headed by retired Judge(Paula Dean in vision and audio) her fingers on temples, chanting "forget the best interest of the kids, forget the best interest if the kids."
Not a happy truth.....more a big sloppy booger of truth in a "justice" system.......
::Noticing I should ground myself in the
present::.
::Noticing how the anger is really masking sadness::.
::Finding my ball of light ...noticing the sadness isn't quite ready to go::..
::laughing like a crazy person over the erroneous....selection .......
over the......
irony......"healthcare"...... "justice"::.
I've got stuff to do.
::reflecting another moment::.
Some great big boogered up things are easier to accept than others.
I know you know what I mean, ((Tupp.))
Lighter
sKePTiKal:
Yup!
I get what you mean, Lighter. It's all so surreal that cognitive dissonance doesn't even begin to describe it.
I'm reading a lot (fantasy fiction) and watching videos/tv. Staying the hell away from politics (gag, choke, I'm totally sick of it) and people's reactive "opinions" about it.
Life is more than politics!!
lighter:
Yes.... life's more than politics and God help us if we neeeeed everyone to change for little'ol us.
::warming to the idea::.
:thinking up a spell::.
Banish co- dependency, BE GONE!
Did it work?
I didn't hear a Poof.
Lighter
lighter:
It's been a whirlwind 2 days since I've been back from lake house.
Two vehicles in the shop for routine maintenance. Broken windshield arm, needed a battery in the Yukon, another nail in DD22's front L tires....rotated tires.
Ahem.....the windshield arm was a $50 lesson for DD22, btw. I asked her "bf" to clean my windshield while I cleaned serviced tires and cleaned windows on smaller vehicle. He snapped the arm and DD22 saw, for herself, how....not competent he is. They aren't seeing each other now or speaking, for that matter.
Feels very.... trifling to write that, but we tend to treat everyone as part of our group/family..... there's a lot of trust handed over and..... some part of me is done waiting and watching. There's more action and movement in these things now. He was gonna trip and he did. Over and over. Just making sure DD22 understood that piece, clearly, along with everything else he showed her.
Wipers work amazingly well now, btw.
Need to get Christmas cards in the mail to day.
Experiencing little to no vertigo recently. Had a bout of brain/eyeball vibration when contemplating God's judgement of my early childhood parenting skills.....stopped thinking about t it before things started to spin, so..... there's that. Vibration went away directly.
I had a dream about late h....seemed we were both on medical tables. He was still, eyes closed....but his hand moved slightl, fingers made contact with mine. Felt like a request for forgiveness....an apology, maybe.
At next acupuncture appt I wanted to explore this....imagined sitting at his grave and was surprised when my spirit dropped down and his spirit sat up in his coffin. We were about 3 feet apart ....and....
He was exactly as I remembered....I left as I arrived.....assume he's doing his own work, wherever he is. I've never pictured him in hell or suffering, btw. His mother told me girls he's in purgatory. Maybe I believe that too.
I wish I'd left it at the touching fingers.
Lighter
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