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Mindfulness and codependence thread
lighter:
Youngest DD getting over the painful rib situation from coughing so much. She dropped a class, sans punishment bc the hurricane made it ok for anyone to drop any class. Oldest DD hanging in there, just over finals. Youngest getting hrough finals now.... anating a movie trailer she created.
DD22 and I hustled to make the 2:30 Nutcracker Ballet on 14th.....the majo roads were closed or down to single lanes and we were late by minutes.
FYI, they begin exactly on time and there's no light guiding your way in the isles when you're late. I noticed the dance if the sexy maids was fully in progress as I lurched into the darkness, then squatted and froze, bc ..balance off and DD had rushed ahead of me.
The shifting gaze of seated theatre goers, onto me, got me moving again. Once I turned upward, I could grab backs of seats almost solely occupied by young children.
Hardly a cough or sniffles in the house. I was glad we didn't need the cough drops I forgot. At break DD got in line for cocktails while I hit the loo. Every stall had a tiny pair of shoes inside the door.....adorable, well dressed children everywhere.
In line for cocktails" we learned wine and beer were only choices. White wine it was.....no snacks....and..... were there really
sexy maids dancing? Why, yes! Yes there were. We giggled about this as we remembered the dance if the drunk maid, very short pass across the stage before being dragged of stage right.....then......did that one maid really flirt with the toy maker? And.....were we to assume they slept together?
Oh, hell no..... someone had monkeyed with everything. The costumes, the choreography AND the story. This wasn't our regular, very comforting Christmas tradition nope nope nope.
We assumed it was the hurricane and prepared to receive the second act. Watching DD's face was much fun as her chin dropped and her hand flew to her mouth again and again. Did we really see a ballerina lifted and swung, knees to her chest, and apart? Yup, we did. Many unpointed toes and unrecognizable Int'l costumes/dances later....it was over and seemed only half complete. Four people came on stage to receive credit for the production and DD immediately filed angered "Boots" or the youngish blonde in boots with the penchant for amping up the sex appeal i.e. the ,(jazz) rats were in leotards and sequins instead of their normal and amazing furry rat attire. We thought they were cats, frankly, bc tiny mouse children preceded their entrance, in the dance of the cheese. We were happy the cats didn't terrorize the tiny mice and I don't know when we figured out the jazzy lady cat, roughly my size, was the Rat King. We were immensely entertained by the Rat King....she was a good dancer.
afterwards, launched into peals of laughter walking to a nearby art museum.....amazing things everywhere! Then giggled quietly, bc there were ballerinas and parents everywhere too, poor unhappy looking dears.
The Snowflakes had good costumes and choreography.
I have 2 tickets still, best seats in the house, and will gift them to the grandma of my new friend, G....9 yo, adopted and in charge of her younger brothers, 3 and 4yo, being fostered in same home. Her mother told her there's no Santa...."time to grow up."
I'm hoping G and her Grandma can use these tickets. We're lucky the show went on, at all, considering the dance studio was destroyed, along with so many homes, roads and towns.
Lighter
sKePTiKal:
I'm sure the creative directors meant well Lighter. Something "fresh, unusual, light-hearted" to shake off the monotony of recovery drudgery. But I don't agree with throwing out the tradition with the bathwater. There would've been other ways to update & make the story "relevant". Of course, that's more difficult and harder to pull off... more of a challenge... and people are likely too tired for those kinds of challenges.
Around here, my step-D (Mike's D) set Saturday for a visit and dinner. With her new guy, and their combined 4 kids - 10 to 16. Hol & A are dealing with food; Hol insisted I focus on dealing with our own stuff - B's medical situation, the (now) 5 kitties... etc. It all sounds a tad "too much" for me... and B is absolutely not social - but he's done very well when he's chosen to be. Pffft! It's been 2-3 years since they've come out or we've gone there... so that frequency certainly isn't an imposition. So I'll clean house, make some more cookies, get some sodas/juice this week... and prepare to leave boys outside and put girlies away in bedroom w/litter box for the duration. Yes, they have animals too... so it wouldn't bother anyone... but my kitties have no boundaries yet and would be a constant disruption. B is obsessive about keeping them safe too... so that would be added stress. He doesn't need anymore of that.
And I'm sure it'll all be fine! We've been through the good, bad & ugly together... and it's great that A & Hol can see each other as sisters - A was an adopted only child and of course, Hol's been as abandoned by Amy (her real sister) as I was. It just means we'll be 7-8 in my smallish house and not a lot of room to spread out... except in studio. It would be great if C were here... but he's got things to do too and since S plans to be here with his dog... even tho Hol and C are getting ready to travel in a couple weeks after... sigh. I hope she told S that she changed her mind and it won't work for him to come "hang out" over the holiday. But it's not my problem.
lighter:
Hmmm.....S.
Hanging out over the holiday.
With his dog.
Hmmmmmmm.
Bc there's not enough going on, not enough animals and not enough for Hol to do with C and upcoming travel and holiday celebrations.
Not gonna say anything, nothing at all, (cough/sabotagio,) just gonna keep me'pie hole closed, yup, yup, yup.
Not your circus, not your clowns, yup, yup, yup.
I'm glad you aren't feeling overwhelmed, Amber. Keeping your plate manageable sounds like good mental and physical hygiene to me.
Must take notice and double down on the message. Letting things go, be they red flags'a fly'in, have to's, or shoulds is an amazing, and deserved freedom, imo.
Again, can feel like flipping a switch for me.
As for the ,"fresh take" on the Nutcracker....I remain baffled.
::picturing sexy maid, on floor, pretending to drink from what could have been an empty glass::.
Baffled.
If they couldn't pull the show together, why would they think changing, adding characters and impossible to decipher costuming could help the cause?
Honestly, it feels a bit like an f u for supporting the school and ballet all these years. I'd rather have watched the tiny children, costumed adorably, run around the stage while the 3.....
::putting it down now::.
::shaking head::.
It was memorable.
Lighter
sKePTiKal:
LOL... I don't always manage to maintain my distance or aplumb, gracefully. But when I can I do; when I can't - I can't. And that's usually because things are emotionally overwhelming; and I need to ask for some support and caring. Or take care of myself for a bit.
lighter:
It comes and goes....and that's ok.
:: dropping judgement. Again::.
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