There's SO much in this recording.
As I was moving through trash duty I noticed my left hand and how it's smoother and more even than my right... .no dark spots, etc. I dumped boiling water on it 5 years ago, not much, but it was red. Didn't register it as a wound, honestly. Over Christmas it scabbed up, got very rough... looked terrible and FOO was all... OMG!, which drew my attention to it. That hand ended up peeling very deeply, looking fresh and dewy after..... likely similar to what people pay money for with chemical peels. Not painful, just gross for a while. The thing was... the hand was traumatized and that trauma changed the hand in a way some would say was positive. I didn't have a thought about it either way. Wouldn't have thought about it if people hadn't been upset to see it.
Eckhart Tolle says some people require trauma or a life-changing event to SEE... to wake up.... and some are ready when they're ready without. Just open to waking.
He says many people are presented with the chance over and over, on their deathbeds and they can GET IT in a split second... and become enlightened.
I think he said it was the Tibetan Book of the Dead, read to the dying by monks, that present these moments again and again for Buddhists. It's an identified goal.
If the opportunity is missed... if we pass on without SEEING.... we reincarnate and try again in the next life. In a way, that's a relief to read. Not that I think it's easy or we get it once and it's done... I think we ARE or we AREN'T awake when we pass and whatever energy/enlightenment we take with us determines what happens next. I admit I don't know what happens, but our energy goes somewhere. Different energy is different... not all the same, IME. Those differences....
think about it.
And it's like this.....
during an energy work session, performed by an experienced practitioner on a suffering individual, I had the feeling I'd been struck with food poisoning..... I was panicked.... thinking I had food poisoning HIT me... looking for a bathroom. FREAKING OUT quietly, wide eyed, wondering how I'd handle vomiting right there, and maybe worse.
When I stepped away from the table, where my friend was standing bc she'd felt it sooner than I did.... the feeling left stopped. I think I talked about it on the board during that class. I report facts as I experience them. I don't change things for drama. I typically under report, truthfully. THAT experience was real.
Just like my reaction to an energy session I experienced..... I couldn't breath (we were working on my lungs at the time) and my upper body shook like my bones would break, then I fought it so it moved down to my legs and feet... shaking violently WHICH I HATED (losing control like that, OMG!)and feared and tried to STOP without managing to. I wish I'd just embraced it, cried bc it was scary and moved through and out of. I think it was the shaking of an animal shaking off trauma bc that's what they do and it was just time, even if I didn't ask or approach the session with that in mind.
I think I missed an opportunity I was ready for, but wholly not expecting and shocked into completely rejecting in the moment... it was not being able to breathe when I was expecting NOTHING or to breathe more easily. I was expecting to hop up, check myself then leave on a trip breathing and walking a bit easier... we'd worked on both feet prior to working on my lungs. I think I shared this on the board, but I revisit it NOW bc I want to make sense of the whole picture. It's not just certain types of energy work... on their own. It's not just dropping judgment and expectation..... that goes in and out of focus... it's SEEING the entire picture. It's having an understanding of the picture, for me, bc I want to understand what IT IS and the processes involved.
Mind you, I don't think knowing is necessary. I don't think it takes time to figure this out. I believe these things happen in an instant, easily, when we don't more ourselves in worry and longing and need to know things that keep our minds racing and tied in knots in the past and future thinking thinking thinking.
I wasn't particularly spiritual until I had an unexpected experience in my early 20s. That made spirituality very real for me when I frankly didn't think much about it. I wasn't looking for it or asking consciously for it. I never considered churches and man-made rules around spirituality a viable option for me. Never considered it till I had children. Still, I was spiritual and church was a distraction that prevented what I called prayer.
So, it stands to reason whatever energy we take with us... whatever level of consciousness we achieve... whatever vibrational level we're vibrating at impacts what comes next, IMO.
I want to die on the lighter, more spacious and enlightened side of my journey. I hope I can hold that goal gently while tending to the path under my feet.
That kissing the earth with our feet walking meditation makes my feet tingle just to think about it. It brings a smile to my face I can't stop smiling. I'm going to do that in the moss between pulling weeds today.
If you haven't listened to this Eckhart Tolle Youtube video yet, consider putting it on while you work in the yard or kitchen... get in the bath. I listen to it over and over bc it's long and I miss a lot. I hear something different every time I listen.
Lighter
