Mindfulness and codependence thread

[lighter]

Had a good chat with DD24 this morning.

She helped me move two huge fabric framed pieces of art out of way, in garage.  We talked about Cows, reactions and having choice vs responding.

Noticing choice or not noticing choice.

Choosing to react, but mindfully choosing it, vs not being aware.

For the most part, she agreed with everything. 

I will say, the discussion came from a place of huge compassion, for me, after watching me struggle, for a while, on my own, ending in a folded mattress breaking the leg on an antique folding file cabinet table filled with assorted beads, bows, costumes and bobbles.....what a mess.

Much was learned, discussed and I asked for help, received it and agreed to ask for help proactively in future.

I honestly thought I could handle the mattress.  Not clearing my path, first, was a problem.


I just stepped on a bit of fabric, from that event, and went down on my left knee, landing in a pile of bits.  Not injured, but must stop, clear some things up, then think through the rest of this transition.....moving sewing machine, costumes and supplies to other end of house, while living in the space.

[lighter]

Well, DD24 just texted a pic of another Grandma J letter.  This one sent to her apartment, which felt stalkerish to her, as her roommate is the only name on the lease.  I guess info could be had from the University....staff?  Voting records?  I'm not worried.  God knows, the girls are old enough to fend for themselves, should they have to.....but it's a reminder.  I should go ahead and pull together court records, applicable to real facts vs the delirium.

The girls have seen, or heard, or experienced the truth, through the years. They KNOW, but sometimes unhinged people start to sound credible, for lack of shame, IME.

It's the lack of shame.....that confounds me, in so many current situations.

The pug has vomited up her breakfast.
Twice.
She's laying on my chest, currently....and I thought I saw a little gray Hitler mustache......
it's just a little residual foam.

[Hopalong]

Yikes. Hope DD will use the timeworn RETURN TO SENDER when she's able.

Sorry about the knee owie!

Pup took me down a few days back. Sharing his excitement on his return from patrolling the property, dashed in all happy, blasted around a corner where I was standing and jumped at my leg (I'm a terrible trainer), hit the side of my knee and down I went. No horrid pain, but I'm still limping.

Meanwhile, he's become more cuddlesome and affectionate than ever in recent months. I learned something amazing I'm obsessed with, maybe already posted about it. Shih Tzus were bred in the 16th century for a very specific purpose: warming emperors' cold feet. They drill under bedclothes to the foot of the bed and lie directly over your feet. I had no idea a behavior that specific (and odd) could be genetically programmed.

Pup literally battles to get back onto my feet after I shove him off. It's kinda uncomfortable, 15 pounds of sand, etc. But his drive to be in that position blows my mind.

I've started to think that probably 90% of what we are and what we do is genetic.

hugs
Hops