I was pulling up 2 bushels of sedum from front rock pile when.....
Retired nurse and nice neighbor drove up. They announced nice neighbors selling home in the fall..... they're moving to a independent living place this July .....brand new....they scored a 2/2, much to their delight. Apparently, they'd just toured the place and it has a theatre, maid and all meals provided. I'm pleased they've decided and seem to be thrilled.
Retired nurse asked for some sedum,for her DD....
"who lost everything in her front yard, during the hurricane." I told her to bring containers and I'd share the sedum, no problem.
The nurse admired my huge hosta, and I happily showed her the 10 new stalks on one hydrangeas bush.... everything loves the sun at the road.....grows so fast!
The nurse pointed to her huge and magnificent hydrangea bush....from which I started my four bushes .....and she said ..
"Look at my bush .....I thought it had been diminished, but just look at it." Please note, it grows outside it's wire fence boundary every year.....and I take some of those outside the fence...she and I discuss it every year, but.....I believe her dalliance with the Yelly Guy has had her on the buddy focking path, with me, on and off FOR YEARS. I get to decide if I continue letting it go OR do something about it.
I've about landed on.....
1. Sending her the, very telling, apologies Yelly Guy stupidly sent me through texts...asking her that decide who's "story" lines up.....
2. Asking her to correct her "Lighter diminished her hydrangeas story" and reminding her it's me who pays yard guys to weed eat her side of the creek...me who picks up limbs and branches daily from her yard, bc she can't anymore, and me who invited her to easily blow leaves into my leaf piles....never mind constructing drainage for her, and planting my hosta along the entire side of her house. Yes, the storm destroyed almost every one, but still......
I didn't "diminish" her hydrangeas, as she herself noted. (Remember when she said she decided she didn't like the color of moss?) and I built a little stone border between us, and didn't let her blow her leaves into my leaf islands, bc she also decided to stop using Preen, which meant she blew her germinated grass and weed seeds INTO my yard, as well, basically tripling weeding for me? I don't enjoy living in that kind of conflict, so I went back to being lovely .... she's lovely to me face, but says awful things behind my back. Just letting her buddy fock me, to our shared neighbors, occasionally creates a sneaky hate spiral.....I can shake....but it's circular, as of now.
I'd like to continue carrying on my side of a lovely relationship, but it sometimes makes me feel like a chump.
I can choose to:
Let it go? She's pretty f'n thrilled with me and her yard right now.
Or.....
Send, the the nurse all the Yelly Guy apology texts, and follow up with a frank conversation, clearing the air, for my part, sans expectations...then, continue being kind and considerate
OR
stop extending kindnesses and assume aloof neutrality from a great emotional distance?
Such a beautiful day.....our walked the
Cowgirl and her black lab. My sister, the pug and I gave the lab lots of affection. Cowgirl said cowboy was "on the he run, having failed the show for a TRO hearing on Thursday." She shot me a look, as I walked away......asked me to keep it secret. Her look said she'd called me a liar to the nice neighbor's DD, which makes m want to build heavy Swedish shutters between us......
::sigh::.
I'm glad cowboy has been legally banished....that simplifies things. I didn't listen when she said what cowboy did to terrorize her April 30th .....I missed it, he'd been arrested.
::wrestling between options, again::.
::softening...::.
I'm gonna speak to the retired nurse.....
the way I'd want her too speak to me.
Then I'm gonna release expectations, and accept the outcome, sans judgment, bc that's where serenity lives inside my body, yup yup yup.
I don't need to do anything re the cowboys. That's a terrible thing......not mine to wrestle with. If she talks about him disappearing to Mexico, to avoid service....she can tell her best friend, and I'll speak with compassion. As I'd want to be spoken to.
The house just shuddered....I think it was an earthquake.
Lighter