Voicelessness and Emotional Survival > Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
The Lake House
lighter:
OK. I have to move the King mattress back downstairs and the Queen mattress back upstairs.Drat.
The good news is.... the really heavy wood and leather sleigh bed is already upstairs.
lighter:
My brother picked up the balance of the LVP and is delivering it to the lake this weekend. He'll mow if it's necessary. It will be good to hear his input on the projects as they come along. The grout is finished in bathroom #22...I haven't seen it yet. That bathroom has a lot of tile and will have a lot of grout. Will be interesting.
If I didn't say, I decided to put fake beams in bedroom #2 to cover over the place where closet wall was removed. It's a realively small room and the cost isn't crazy to add charm while fixing problems.
I still have paint selections to make and that will be next week.
I'll remember to bring a countertop burner so there's no more cooking oil filling the house,bc the downdraft isn't working. Have to see to that too.
Will begin cleaning cabinets, taking them apart and sanding in the garage soon. Likely not next week, bc I need to move garage stuff to the out building.
I'm pleased brother on same page about putting family things into the out building.
It seems like all sibs working in the same direction for the very first time. I anticipate we can do amazing things together.
Lighter
lighter:
I'm traveling to the lake with the Pug this evening.
She's clean and won't be happy, but I have a vet appt scheduled for regular butt drain and nail trim required when keeping a pug. It's too important to leave to the girls and I don't want one second of dealing with resulting mess if they fail. I also really like the all female vet office at the lake. SO clean, it actually smells good, never like fear and dirty animals, which was the case at the vet run by.... hmmm.... lots of judgment coming up there. I'll take a pass.
The girls will travel to the lake later in the week, thus taking that off my plate to do as I need. Will free me up to start large projects and get on with them with less driving across 3 states, willy nilly, which messes up my groove.
My friend, D.... who yelled "She's a f'n bitch" at the nutritioal response office.... will just call her D from now on..... texted today and asked me to find and resend all the informtion I put together for her, which hasn't helped one bit.
I'm just not going to do that for here again and expect a different outcome. Instead, I forwarded easy to find links so she can do the work herself. She's still not gotten the eye glasses fitted as far as I know. I didn't ask her about it.
Releasing expectation is such a helpful habit. I don't feel guilty or wrong when I do it lately. It's like walking into the light and being OK wit it.
What, pray tell, would I find wrong with that? The feeling I'm leaving people, some I love very much, behind.... in the dark. I see that stamped all over my codependent life, frankly. Time to face it and make new decisions.
Everyone gets to decide where they'll walk and how.... well.... most of us in first world countries do. And that's a little shot of stress chem for me. The idea not everyone can choose real safety and feeling safe, but I can and I take myself back to what I can control... just myself and where and how I walk.
It looks like it might storm, so will take the little white car, instead of the big truck. I don't know where it's leaking or how, so will save that trouble for when I have other work done on a for sure dry couple of days and leave it in the garage to dry out with the precautions and solutions for killing mild and removing moisture in place. Must bring ozone machine back with me from the lake. And the steamer too, bc I notice I have uses for them both everywhere I go and it's difficult to remember where they are.
I have to get new keys for vehicles made and placed on all the key chains.
Yup yup yup.
Lighter
lighter:
The contractor is back to his old self and done tiling in all 3 bathrooms. He has to finish grouting in two.
I suspect he's super sensitive to criticism. Maybe the unhappy client was triggering. Maybe he has a chemical balance. Maybe I'll SOOPH and stay focused on myself.
I'm thinking about having him build out 2 or more tiny houses for lake rentals. This will help with cost analysis. Definitely will not build on trailers, bc codes are Super strict. Will keep thinking. Any input is welcome.
Lighter
Hopalong:
--- Quote ---The feeling I'm leaving people, some I love very much, behind.... in the dark. I see that stamped all over my codependent life, frankly. Time to face it
--- End quote ---
Just to play, what about trying out reframing it this way:
When I leave people in the dark (when I know a better answer, which is in light) ... what I'm doing is allowing them the human privilege of learning their own strength and capability from finding their OWN way through dark to light.
Thinking of it that way, it looks like active respect, rather than abandonment.
hugs
Hops
Navigation
[0] Message Index
[#] Next page
[*] Previous page
Go to full version