Hops

[Twoapenny]

Has anyone heard from Hops?  She's not usually absent for this long.

[lighter]

Was thinking the board is too quiet, Tupp.

It's odd how adrenaline and worst case scenarios pop up.  My mind went from accident to home invasion before I noticed hot adrenaline and stopped the parade of horrible things.

I hope you're happily busy, Hops.  Check in when you can.

Lighter

[Hopalong]

Y'all sayin' I'm NOISY??!! Heaven forfend, sez the demure one.

Sorry I haven't checked in, and I'm moved to have been missed.
For about a month I've been in an emotional slump. Better now,
and there are still positive things too. Pup and Handyman, LOL.

I don't have the energy to do a good narrative just yet but I will soon.

hugs,
Hops

[Hopalong]

Y'all sayin' I'm NOISY???!!!???
Quiet lil ole me?

Thanks for the tug, guys.

I'm better now but just went through a couple weeks of....emotional slump.
Had to wait it out like bad weather, didn't have the focus or energy to write clearly.

I've spent way too much time watching an endless stream of old Dateline episodes on YouTube. Keith Morrison turned into my bedtime story reader. Not a brilliant choice but I think I've been lonely and anxious at once and need a human voice.

Definitely the spark with engineer-handyman continues to glow, and that makes me happy but anxious. Pup still isn't reliably housebroken and I'm re-starting with more of a schedule.

Happy things:
Took Pup over to meet a neighbor who's nearly 100 and she loved him. We sat on her porch and she just drawled happy comments about him while he gave her kisses. We'll go back.

In the last week I've heard from more people than in months. I think the nicer weather brings out the social instinct. So I've seen a couple. Also making more effort to eat better -- the not-cooking thing is getting too expensive but my back is not cooperating much. Not happy with my weight gain!

Overall, I still have the general feeling of trying to find my fragile balance. Since hearing from and finally saying No to my D, who got her half-brother to ask me if she could come live with me, losing Pooch, etc etc...I honestly haven't recovered my serenity. I think I will, but the last four months have been destabilizing and activated old bruises and then...add severe sleep disorder. Been a bit of a mess.

This TOO shall pass; I have faith in the process. But I'm more hermity than I could/should be.

Thanks for caring, y'all. It means a whole lot to me.

hugs
Hops

[Twoapenny]

Well I don't know quite the right way to say it, Hops, but I'm glad it was those problems keeping you away and not 'slipped in the bath, can't get to a phone' kind of problems, which unfortunately was where my mind was heading! Over active imagination and all that.

I think only pet owners understand the loss of a pet.  It's no different to losing any other loved one and causes a huge shock to the system, in my experience.  And interaction with D again - there's no way it wouldn't be painful, unfortunately.  Life would be easier if we could switch our feelings off but we have to take the whole package, I guess.  I'm glad things are settling a bit.  'Pup on a Porch' visits sound good, as does socialising in general.  Hopefully getting out and about a bit more might help the sleep thing to settle a bit.  Lack of sleep is just the worse.

I'm glad you're doing okay and things are starting to ease off a bit x

PS:  Not noisy - just regular   Lol

[sKePTiKal]

I also wondered about your prolonged "silence" Hops. But I've recently had a chance to revisit my hermiting solitude (won't last long) so I haven't been posting much either.

All is well here and the various "characters" (who are real people) in my story are fine. Just not much of a story about all of us at the moment to tell. Another good thing, I think.

The weather is shifting to fall; that should help give you an energy boost!

[lighter]

Seems to me, everyone has cycles.
 Solitude is, more or less, familiar landscape.

I noticed it feels less sticky if I try to widen my gaze and remember it's just another pebble, sans judgement.

The views can be more interesting/informative, depending on my POV.

So glad to hear from you, ((Hops.))
You were missed.

Lighter