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Twoapenny

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« on: April 02, 2025, 06:55:52 AM »
I've just come back on to say I've deleted the previous thread.  I'm sorry to say I found the way in which a lengthy post I'd made was largely ignored apart from one throwaway remark at the end referring to rethinking our situation which led to two, unfortunately, quite patronising posts about getting lifts from people.

I am so tired of not being heard, and it's worse when it happens here, because this is supposed to be about Voicelessness.  I know that intentions were good, but would it really be so hard to stop and think for just a minute before posting.  I have explained my situation with my son over and over again.  I've explained repeatedly about the constant refusals for support for my son.  The notion that our situation would be perfectly workable if he could get a lift somewhere every now and again is a real insult to the complexities of his disability, to our situation as a whole and to my level of intelligence.  On what planet would I have sat here for the last three years and at no point thought to find out what's on offer locally?  I am so tired of the constant attitude I get everywhere.  My son's disabled, therefore I am too stupid to look up basic things and do some basic problem solving.  I am also tired of people assuming I make the decisions.  My son is miserable, there isn't enough to do, he hasn't met anyone he particularly wants to spend time with and he doesn't enjoy all the time we spend in the car, or seeing me struggling to drive when my back's bad or my hip's gone again.  He is a human with the same needs, wants and desires as any other man his age, in exactly the same way that I am only 52, yet for the last twenty years I've been forced to live like a nun with no social life, no paid employment, no relationships and no money for anything other than essential spends and the very occasional treat.  Why everyone I encounter thinks this is perfectly fine has always been a complete mystery to me.

I am very grateful for all the board has given me over the years but I won't be posting anymore.  It's simply too exhausting to have to keep dealing with these situations, where my response can only be either a rant, ignoring the comments or having to write yet another lengthy explanation about a situation that I didn't raise in the first place.

I'd suggest to anyone who wants a taste of my life to commit to a year with no contact with anyone you know.  Place yourself in complete isolation.  Get up at 5am every day and spend your entire day either driving, sitting in your car, or at home alone.  Pay yourself half of whatever your area's minimum wage is and live on that.  Nothing else.  Then remind yourself I've done this for 23 years now, and come back and tell me that not once in that 12 month period did you think to go online and see if there was any sort of viable alternative.

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« Reply #1 on: April 02, 2025, 11:47:19 AM »
 I'm so sorry, Tupp.  I'll not make excuses, only say I want more 3D connection and fellowship for you.

I know you're smart and resourceful.

Once a mom of 2 same age sons, as my girls, wanted the trade off playdates.  I kept her children and enjoyed being present with her autistic son.....guess he was about 18mo.   I learned not to put my face near his, bc he punched.    I learned he focused and made eye contact when I sang.  We did that and played and played ....4 kids.... playroom was a mess, but went it well. I was super happy with the arrangement. Kids were bathed and fed when other mother picked them up.  I'd call that entire day fun.

Come time for the other mother to watch my girls and it lasted an hour before she asked me to come get them....... they'd made a mess of her playroom, "it wasn't working out."  I'd watched her kiddos for 6 hours and was feeling great about working with her autistic son.....to painting and making up songs. His Grandmother was astonished at the connection silly singing made.  Seemed an ideal situation to me.

I hope you find 3-D connections with other like minded people soon, Tupp. 

I hurt you, I see that now.  It wasn't my intention.

Come back if it feels right.
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« Reply #2 on: Today at 03:01:54 PM »
I'm sorry too, Tupp.
I know my ideas often can come across as unsolicited advice, but I have great respect for you.

I may be senile, but remembered upbeat anecdotes about Son enjoying things, so I didn't realize he is so miserable now. That makes me sad for you both.

Your driving pain sounds awful, frustrating and limiting. I think I wasn't clear that you have to drive such distances, because I'd pictured your home as being just outside a village. Shows what I (don't) know. I fantasize a lot about where/how my friends live. And I need to remember that my deluded daydreams aren't facts. But unless I'm asked, I should keep my "solutions" ideas zipped unless asked.

I'll miss you tremendously if you stay gone and if you might return if I stop replying, I can read in supportive silence. Say the word.

If you need to stay gone, please know much love and hope goes with you.

hugs,
Hops
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