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Re: Anything again
« Reply #105 on: May 03, 2026, 08:40:23 PM »
We're having the most amazing weather, Meh. 

The sky....clouds....breeze.  Heck, it hailed after a rat a tat rainfall, then the sky went pink.  What an amazing sunset.....chirping bats.....golden light hitting green trees, and newly planted hosta.

Lighter

That sounds beautiful!

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Re: Anything again
« Reply #106 on: May 03, 2026, 08:50:54 PM »

Went to church - Hung out with people after because I wanted coffee and why not. Talked to a woman about gardening and that was nice. She was telling me that what I found in the garden once was likely a vole not a mole. I think they look helpless and cute. I put some water down next to it and stuck a leaf over it so it wouldn't get eaten. The church lady was in favor of killing them because she says they eat tulips.

She is one of the friendlier upbeat cutesy church ladies. Very likable.

And I talked to another woman there who said she doesn't have kids. They stated so because mother's day coming up.

I did some minor job research stuff this morning.

Feeling so much ambivalence. I need to kill this ambivalence stuff. -- Don't make decisions nothing bad can happen -- lack of decisions lame stuff still happens.
 

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« Reply #107 on: May 04, 2026, 11:42:52 PM »

Tomorrow is Tuesday and my life is really passing me by.

I did find a quiet place with my laptop today and tried to focus.

All I really managed to do was go through my medical virtual chart and set an appointment with a new PCP same network but it's a whole month out.

I think I will refuse to complain about it.

My expectations seem to be too high. Sadly I recall having very good health care I guess years ago.

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« Reply #108 on: May 05, 2026, 10:49:02 AM »
30 days is standard for things like physicals - in fact, it's actually pretty fast. What blows my mind is when a person is really sick and feels like warmed up dog crap or in pain, and the earliest appt you can get is 6 months away!!
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« Reply #109 on: May 05, 2026, 12:11:57 PM »
Yikes Skeptical, six months is too long.

Takes a lot of effort, phone calls, persistence, stamina to do healthcare stuff.

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« Reply #110 on: Today at 12:25:47 AM »

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« Reply #111 on: Today at 07:03:21 AM »
Sigh... yeah I know. I was shocked B's surgery was actually scheduled so soon. And insurance approved, no less.

I've tried to explain what's been going wrong to myself. And about the only thing I'm sure about is that AI/technology is gumming up what USED to work fine. Way too many reminders about appointments - text, email & phone call for instance. I mean, is anyone that brain dead that they need bi-weekly reminders for a month before an appt? Or maybe that's distracted, instead?

PLAY is a good thing. But there are so many different forms of it and different people gravitate to different kinds of things. Figuring out what is fun for you - when you've not indulged the urge for awhile - is the key. For instance, I don't think shopping is fun - a thrift store is an absolute nightmare for me. Or big concerts. We're allowed to not like what other people think is fun. I think I'd like a wildflower hike and botanical drawing session - which would bore some people to tears.
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« Reply #112 on: Today at 11:01:39 AM »
The text reminders must be super inexpensive so that is why they do it.

The reason I complain about it is because I worked for a healthcare system that made it a point to optimize everything continually and I didn't realize how good it was until I had to work through my current system which is more rural and I guess they likely just have a lot less money to work with so they don't pay staff to improve stuff.

I won't go on about it only that it's strange to me that every department and speciality requires another phone call.

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« Reply #113 on: Today at 11:13:43 AM »
Sigh... yeah I know. I was shocked B's surgery was actually scheduled so soon. And insurance approved, no less.

I've tried to explain what's been going wrong to myself. And about the only thing I'm sure about is that AI/technology is gumming up what USED to work fine. Way too many reminders about appointments - text, email & phone call for instance. I mean, is anyone that brain dead that they need bi-weekly reminders for a month before an appt? Or maybe that's distracted, instead?

PLAY is a good thing. But there are so many different forms of it and different people gravitate to different kinds of things. Figuring out what is fun for you - when you've not indulged the urge for awhile - is the key. For instance, I don't think shopping is fun - a thrift store is an absolute nightmare for me. Or big concerts. We're allowed to not like what other people think is fun. I think I'd like a wildflower hike and botanical drawing session - which would bore some people to tears.

Thanks for validating that there are different kinds of play. - I think I sort of get down on myself if I don't play correctly as an adult. I don't really have fun too often. The last time I feel like I had fun was when I dragged a friend on a day road trip that was kinda fun. But was more fun was going to a trampoline park with my nephews many many years ago and let them beat me at nerf swords.

Being a consumer is something I'm burnt out on generally. I too don't always love shopping but I do like thrifting at times. Same on the big concerts I've definitely grown out the "being at the scene" experience. A wildflower hike sounds nice for sure. I would categorize a wildflower high as rejuvenating, peaceful, awe-inspiring. I wouldn't call it fun.

I feel like fun is when a person has uncontrollable smiling.

I love hiking and gardening and flowers it gives me like calm and peace but I don't think that is the felt-sense of fun.

Oh also playing tug of war with dogs is sometimes fun.

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« Reply #115 on: Today at 11:26:44 AM »

I rarely play as I'm not very athletic or social but when I think about it the main forms of play that I recall are:

- trampoline park
- dog wrestling
- skimboarding

If I think of anything else I will put it down. I don't play that much. But frankly it seems to me playing is a physical practice at least it is for me.

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« Reply #116 on: Today at 11:31:12 AM »

I have to ask AI

The Neurochemistry of Physical Play
When you engage in activities like skimboarding or wrestling with a dog, your brain isn't just "having fun"; it is performing a complex biological maintenance routine:

BDNF (Brain-Derived Neurotrophic Factor): Physical play acts like "Miracle-Gro" for the brain. It stimulates the growth of new neurons and strengthens connections in the prefrontal cortex, which is the area responsible for decision-making and emotional regulation.

The "Endocannabinoid" Rush: While people often credit endorphins, the "runner's high" or the joy of a trampoline park is often driven by endocannabinoids. These are naturally occurring chemicals that reduce pain and promote a sense of calm and well-being.

Dopamine and Novelty: Play requires reacting to unpredictable movements (a wave, a dog’s lunge, the bounce of a mat). This constant novelty keeps dopamine firing, which keeps you present and "in the zone."

Why Physical Play Relieves Stress Better
Stress usually triggers the Sympathetic Nervous System (the "fight or flight" response). In modern life, we often get stuck in this state without a physical outlet.

Completing the Stress Cycle: Physical play allows the body to "use up" the adrenaline and cortisol that build up during daily stress. It signals to the brain that the "threat" has been dealt with physically, allowing you to return to a Parasympathetic (rest and digest) state.

The Cerebellum Connection: The cerebellum, located at the base of the brain, is primarily responsible for motor control and balance. However, recent research shows it also plays a role in processing emotions. By engaging the cerebellum through balance-heavy activities like skimboarding, you may be inadvertently "quieting" the emotional centers of the brain that hold onto anxiety.

Vagal Tone: Wrestling or jumping can stimulate the vagus nerve, which is the main component of the parasympathetic nervous system. High vagal tone is associated with lower inflammation and better recovery from stress—especially helpful when your body is already physically taxed or sore.
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1. BDNF and the "Miracle-Gro" Effect
The term "Miracle-Gro for the brain" was popularized by Dr. John Ratey, a clinical associate professor of psychiatry at Harvard Medical School.

Source: Ratey, J. J. (2008). Spark: The Revolutionary New Science of Exercise and the Brain.

Play Specifics: Research by Sergio Pellis (The Playful Brain) demonstrates that "rough and tumble" play specifically reshapes the prefrontal cortex, enhancing executive function and emotional regulation.

2. The Endocannabinoid Rush (Runner's High)
Recent neuroscience has shifted the credit for the "exercise high" from endorphins to endocannabinoids (specifically anandamide), because endorphins are too large to easily cross the blood-brain barrier.

Source: Fuss, J., et al. (2015). "A runner's high depends on cannabinoid receptors in mice." Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences (PNAS).

Source: Siebers, M., et al. (2021). "Exercise-induced euphoria and anxiolysis do not depend on endogenous opioids in humans." Psychoneuroendocrinology.

3. Completing the Stress Cycle
The concept that physical activity "completes" the biological stress response was developed by researchers looking at how animals shed stress after a threat.

Source: Nagoski, E., & Nagoski, A. (2019). Burnout: The Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle.

4. The Cerebellum and Emotion
While once thought to only handle balance, the cerebellum's role in emotion is a major focus in modern research.

Source: Schmahmann, J. D. (2004). "The cerebellum and cognition: Evidence from functional imaging studies." The Cerebellum.

5. Vagal Tone and Physical Play
The Vagus Nerve is the "brake pedal" for your heart and stress levels.

Source: Porges, S. W. (2011). The Polyvagal Theory: Neurophysiological Foundations of Emotions, Attachment, Communication, and Self-regulation.

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« Reply #118 on: Today at 08:00:39 PM »
So I went to a church group thing today again and one of the older ladies invited me to visit her house on mother's day. She says she doesn't have plans. It seems like the nicest thing ever. She does have adult grown kids but they live far away from her. I'm not sure if I can get there. Still considering it in the back of my mind.

She eventually told me today "most of us here have dysfunctional families" ... I didn't exactly tell her my relatives are dysfunctional I said it more like "fragmented."

These people can't be fooled they seem to read between the lines. Anywho.

I'm already tired for my day. Got some exercise didn't do any on Monday or Tuesday so today was the day.

Maybe I will take a nap and then get up and be productive idk.

I'm going to try to remember and change my password. If I never come back on it's because I've locked myself out.

There are 1743 total members on this board and there are only 3-4 regulars at this point?

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